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Dad struggled to get her to wake up, begging her can you wake up, Staci’s here, Staci wants to talk to you

She eventually opened her eyes and said hi

Dad left the room so I could talk to her, but I couldn’t really say anything, she had fallen asleep and wouldn’t wake up and wouldn’t answer, I just kept squeezing her hand and saying hi and asking her to wake up

She finally opened her eyes for a minute and I wanted a goodbye hug but I couldn’t reach over the armrest and I didn’t know how to lower it, so I panic yelled for dad to get back and by the time he got back in the room she’d fallen asleep again

We struggled get her awake again, but she finally did and I dove forward for a hug and she gave one and then dad had to help her hold her arm up but she hugged me and I got to hug her and put my head to her chest one last time

I told her she tried. That for a while she stopped trying and it hurt so much, but then she tried again, and it was good, it was important, she tried, she tried, for so long, for a decade we had time together where she tried to parent and care

And she tried to live in the hospital but it was done, she was tired, she couldn’t. And it’s not okay but it’s okay everyone gets tired eventually

Her arms were covered in bruises, just the whole thing. I’m so glad I didn’t have to see her fucked up skin grafted legs

She fell asleep again and this time she was more insistant, we really struggled to wake her up again but she barely could, she couldn’t get her eyes open, but when I said goodbye she smiled

And then I had to walk away. And i sobbed throughout the walk to the lobby I wonder how the nurses felt seeing it I wonder how frequent it is for them I don’t think I could work a job where I hear people sobbing and don’t try to intervene / actively choose to let them get it out like Everett or Ali at work

We sat in the lobby and I put my head on dad’s shoulder and we held hands and cried. I repeated she said hi she hugged me she smiled.

I begged him to not be one of those spouses that goes within six months of their spouse, he promised he’d stay around, it’s the second time we’ve had that convo. I said I was worried he’d be lonely, he said he had stuff to do, I told him I’d get him more books at the library. He gave me a summary of the second half of the book I’d gotten out for him, the fannish style of his explanation soothed my sobbing. Just like fandomy stuff has always gotten me through mental health stuff. He’s recently wondered if I’m autistic based on a sportsball player he likes getting diagnosed and looking up symptoms and it’s like no, i work with heavily autistic kids at work that’s not me, I have ocd and sensory issues but no communication issues, but man does hyperfixating on something help, stories and scripts have always helped

We talked about the slow logistics of the next steps, he’s going to have Heather and Colin help for the funeral stuff, but there’s so much cleaning and sorting to do. He wants to keep the bed, we have all this food she’ll never eat

A few hours later after coming home he asked how I was doing I told him I took a gummy he basked how that was going I apologized for being a bad daughter/son/offspring but I was sad but also kinda enjoying my weekend. He said he cycles through being fine and crying

In the hospital we’d talked about how he didn’t want to be his dad, based on the abusive dads of the 1950s in his book, and how he didn’t think grandpa ever said he loved him,and he tried to be better by me. He was a parent for such a crucial part of my life when mom wasn’t, he’s always supportive

In the hallway I tell him that even being able to have this conversation makes him better than grandpa. The fact that it’s the hundredth hard convo we’ve had because he’s always there for me proves he’s a better father.

So I apologise for being neurodivergent and knowing I don’t react to things in the right ways, and him loving and supporting me anyway, and being queer, and needing help with executive function/adulting shit, he said the better for him, and what was normal anyway. I was like well Tracy Karen Nicole (straight married with multiple kids house owning cousins) are more than me, for sure. He told me about Tracy having to take a business trip so heather’s got to take paisley to a dance recital because pat doesn’t know how to do makeup. I said that’s dumb because when your kid is into a thing, you support it even if you don’t actually give a shit. You go to the recital, the sportsball game, the choir robotics chess club. Dad knows endless reems of fandom shit he doesn’t care about for me. Dad said no, pat loves the kids and Jenna’s husband is like that too, they just don’t know how, and it’s just like no, you learn if you care. Dad learned about Buffy and hp and at and hr now. I want to roll my eyes and be like the incompetence of men, and the willingness of hets to allow it but dad never fucking did. It’s not the men or the hets it’s just bad people and good people.

It’s time for 2025’s only Dreamwidth post… my Dear Yuletide Author post!

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Deadly Class, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia, transphobia, if the characters would face it, write it. Four of my five fandoms this year have on screen drug use. Having done a bunch of things in my late teens, I have a huge squick for drug inaccuracies. Erowid.org is a great resource with trip reports and instructions if you need it.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good.

If you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

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Fall Of The House Of Usher: this is by far my favourite of all the Flanagan shows, because of how queer it is. I’ve spent a year watching reactors watch it, and it’s so aggravating because everyone just comments about how weird their sex lives are, whereas it’s one of the shows that understand my a-spec poly sexuality best. I love Tamerlane being a voyeur, needing to outsource intimacy and sexuality. I love Perry living with his queerplatonic best friends, doing drugs and having orgies. And I love Camille’s contractual sex, which gives off very BDSM vibes. I know we later find out Bill wasn’t very into it, and that Toby and Beth/Tina later reject the contract, but I’d love a fic with any one of the siblings enjoying their sex life, without me as the audience supposedly feeling ashamed of it.

Kaos: the world building in this show was just fascinating, it’s gotta be said, but I’m in this fandom for my rare ship. I’ve requested Caeneus, Riddy, and Orpheus, because I would love them to have a happily ever after poly ending. Maybe Orpheus helps in the fight against the gods, and Riddy takes him back. Maybe they’ve always been open, out of the spotlight, and Orpheus is happy to meet his girlfriend’s new lover. Maybe Orpheus dies, and he and Caeneus work together and bond.

Birth: adore the aesthetic, and need world building. I love the magic system that ignores scale, people living inside pomegranates, and whole aquariums inside a drop of water. There’s enough of a capitalist system that they have cellphones and jobs, but everyone seems to use the barter system, small favours done in exchange for bones and bugs and organs and flowers. I love how gender neutral they seem to be. I’d love a poly fic, an established couple inventing a third. Also interested in if their species has the concept of children, or if people always build adults.

Deadly Class: I ship Billy, Lex, Petra, and Marcus in essentially any combination. I love Billy/Lex, Billy/Lex/Petra, Billy/Marcus, and Billy/Lex/Petra/Marcus. (for that matter, I also would ship the four of them with Saya, Maria, and Willie for a nice ot7). From Marcus talking about giving handjobs to Lex attacking people with dildos to Billy getting his arm broken for saying he gets why boys would have a crush on him and his soft skin, the chaotic bisexual energy is strong with literally all of them. Their bleak backstories are fascinating, as is the desperation to which they cling to their found families. They murder for each other, and there's a part of me that finds that so weirdly romantic. I can see basically any kink working for any combination, if you'd like to write a pwp. Or it can be more of a day in the life at the school thing, set mid or post canon. It'd be interesting to see what happens to the school once Lin presumably dies. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD THOUGH, PLEASE DON'T LET LEX DIE. I staunchly ignore those last thirty seconds, and ignore them HARD.

Scary Stories to Tell In the Dark: I'm sure Ramon is a nice guy, but I ship Stella/Auggie/Chuck ridiculously hard. I love that the boys stuck with her as the rest of the town shunned her, actively choosing her despite it making their lives harder. Chuck is my favourite character, with his dumb jokes and inability to behave properly, but Auggie as the aggravated but secretly loving their friendship bff and Stella the thinker are both great too. If you'd like to write an AU where the book doesn't attack that's fine, but I'd like it still being set in the 60's, not a modern AU. Pre-canon is also totally cool, an established thing with them all trying to sneak around their parents and siblings for this relationship that could get them killed, or their developing feelings and the way they finally spill out. Stella finding a way to get them back from the zombies and the pale lady with all the PTSD could be very fun too. Even a mid-movie AU where they suffer from the attacks but figure out ways to not die. I just want them together!

Hi! Thanks for writing for me for holly_poly! My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general:
I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Stranger Things, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would face it, write it. Feel free to age up canonically minor characters as necessary. Five of my six fandoms this year include drug use, and the other could easily incorporate it. Having done a bunch of things in my late teens, and living in a country with legal weed, I have a huge squick for drug inaccuracies. Erowid.org is a great resource with trip reports and instructions if you need it.

I’m down with any rating, but if you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies or clothes sharing works too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Notes on DNWs: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments. Fandom specifically, the tag ‘Scott is a bad friend’ is an automatic click out of any TeenWolf fic. They’re best friends for fucksakes.

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It’s time for 2024’s only Dreamwidth post… my Dear Yuletide Author post!

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Deadly Class, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia, transphobia, if the characters would face it, write it. Four of my five fandoms this year have on screen drug use. Having done a bunch of things in my late teens, I have a huge squick for drug inaccuracies. Erowid.org is a great resource with trip reports and instructions if you need it.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good.

If you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

More specifically:

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Hi! Thanks for writing for me for holly_poly! My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general:
I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for It, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would face it, write it. Feel free to age up canonically minor characters as necessary. Three of my five fandoms this year include drug use, and the others could easily incorporate it. Having done a bunch of things in my late teens, and living in a country with legal weed, I have a huge squick for drug inaccuracies. Erowid.org is a great resource with trip reports and instructions if you need it.

I’m down with any rating, but if you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies or clothes sharing works too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

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It’s time for 2023’s only Dreamwidth post… my Dear Yuletide Author post!

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Rocky Horror, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia, transphobia, if the characters would face it, write it. Two of my three fandoms this year have on screen drug use (and you can’t tell me that Frank wouldn’t get Brad and Janet high as soon as he could). Having done a bunch of things in my late teens, I have a huge squick for drug inaccuracies. Erowid.org is a great resource with trip reports and instructions if you need it.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good.

If you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

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Hi! Thanks for writing for me for holly_poly! My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

Note: still editing for 2022

In general:
I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for It, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would face it, write it. Feel free to age up canonically minor characters as necessary. Three of my five fandoms this year include drug use, and the others could easily incorporate it. Having done a bunch of things in my late teens, and living in a country with legal weed, I have a huge squick for drug inaccuracies. Erowid.org is a great resource with trip reports and instructions if you need it.

I’m down with any rating, but if you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies or clothes sharing works too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

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What’s this? A Dear Yuletide Author post? No way!

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Deadly Class, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would face it, write it. Three of my four fandoms this year have on screen drug use (and Scary Stories could probably slip in for characters likely to smoke weed). Having done a bunch of things in my late teens, I have a huge squick for drug inaccuracies. Erowid.org is a great resource with trip reports and instructions if you need it.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good.

If you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

More specifically:

Deadly Class: I have requested only Billy, despite nomming Billy, Lex, Petra, and Marcus, and the reason is simple: I ship them in essentially any combination. I love Billy/Lex, Billy/Lex/Petra, Billy/Marcus, and Billy/Lex/Petra/Marcus. (for that matter, I also would ship the four of them with Saya, Maria, and Willie for a nice ot7, but you can only nom four characters so I went with the Rats). From Marcus talking about giving handjobs to Lex attacking people with dildos to Billy getting his arm broken for saying he gets why boys would have a crush on him and his soft skin, the chaotic bisexual energy is strong with literally all of them. Their bleak backstories are fascinating, as is the desperation to which they cling to their found families. They murder for each other, and there's a part of me that finds that so weirdly romantic. I can see basically any kink working for any combination, if you'd like to write a pwp. Or it can be more of a day in the life at the school thing, set mid or post canon. It'd be interesting to see what happens to the school once Lin presumably dies. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD THOUGH, PLEASE DON'T LET LEX DIE. I staunchly ignore those last thirty seconds, and ignore them HARD.

Gossip Girl 2021: I’m gonna be honest, I watched this show entirely because in the trailer there appeared to be a threesome. I was not disappointed. I love everything about Aki/Audrey/Max. I weirdly relate to Audrey, the financial ruin thing (though mine went from middle class to poverty line, not super rich to rich), and the clinically depressed emotionally abusive mom. I grew up loving Brian Kinney from Queer As Folk, and Max is like his child; proudly sexual and hedonistic, drugs and sex and luxury goods a veneer over the inner pain, not that many care to look deeper. And then Aki, so gen and chill except for all the times his life is falling apart. His dad outing him (and mislabelling him too!) is brutal. I usually hate cheating storylines, the amount of times I’ve bitched ‘don’t cheat just be poly’ is staggering. And Gossip Girl is a show that actually goes there. They both go from ashamed of their cheating and Max being used, to finding comfort in each other. I was fucking over the moon that it ended happily. I’d love literally any relationship fic. Directly post canon fic, future adult them fic, anything that happens in the high moments of the episodes.

Scary Stories to Tell In the Dark: I'm sure Ramon is a nice guy, but I ship Stella/Auggie/Chuck ridiculously hard. I love that the boys stuck with her as the rest of the town shunned her, actively choosing her despite it making their lives harder. Chuck is my favourite character, with his dumb jokes and inability to behave properly, but Auggie as the aggravated but secretly loving their friendship bff and Stella the thinker are both great too. If you'd like to write an AU where the book doesn't attack that's fine, but I'd like it still being set in the 60's, not a modern AU. Pre-canon is also totally cool, an established thing with them all trying to sneak around their parents and siblings for this relationship that could get them killed, or their developing feelings and the way they finally spill out. Stella finding a way to get them back from the zombies and the pale lady with all the PTSD could be very fun too. Even a mid-movie AU where they suffer from the attacks but figure out ways to not die. I just want them together!

Sense8: I love Wolfgang, Rajan and Kala's dynamic together, so fucking much. Wolfgang is such a loner type, that when he tells Rajan other people wouldn't have done for him what he did and they're FRIENDS now, ugh. Even if you don't triangle ship them, only v-poly, they dance together at the wedding and I completely headcanon that Felix and Wolfgang and Rajan all hang out. And the way Rajan just wants to be a good husband, and genuinely means that in a 'what supports Kala' way, not in any traditional sense, fucking bless his soul. And Kala, struggling with it and the concept of secretly being "bad", and maybe that's okay...
Basically, I just want them to hang out and date and fuck. If you only subscribe to v-poly that's fine, but the final orgy scene had Wolfgang and Rajan kissing AND I DIED, so if you want to write triangle poly that's lovely too. (also, mild headcanon of felix/wolfgang having on and off extremely casual bro-sex. so if Rajan wants to have an OMG KINDA GAY revelation I'd understand it more than Wolfgang one? But you write what makes you happy) Also, I love the background ot8. If you felt like writing a snippet of a orgy within Rajan/Kala/Wolfgang that’d be rad as hell.

Hi! Thanks for writing for me for holly_poly! My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general:
I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Deadly Class, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would face it, write it. Feel free to age up canonically minor characters as necessary. Two of my six fandoms this year include drug use, and the other four could easily incorporate it. Having done a bunch of things in my late teens, and living in a country with legal weed, I have a huge squick for drug inaccuracies. Erowid.org is a great resource with trip reports and instructions if you need it.

I’m down with any rating, but if you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

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It's that time of year... a Dear Yuletide Author post!

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Deadly Class, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would face it, write it. Three of my four fandoms this year include drug use (and Letterkenny could probably sneak in if you consider all the schneef references). Having done a bunch of things in my late teens, I have a huge squick for drug inaccuracies. Erowid.org is a great resource with trip reports and instructions if you need it.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good.

If you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

More specifically:

Deadly Class: I have requested only Billy, despite nomming Billy, Lex, Petra, and Marcus, and the reason is simple: I ship them in essentially any combination. I love Billy/Lex, Billy/Lex/Petra, Billy/Marcus, and Billy/Lex/Petra/Marcus. (for that matter, I also would ship the four of them with Saya, Maria, and Willie for a nice ot7, but you can only nom four characters so I went with the Rats). From Marcus talking about giving handjobs to Lex attacking people with dildos to Billy getting his arm broken for saying he gets why boys would have a crush on him and his soft skin, the chaotic bisexual energy is strong with literally all of them. Their bleak backstories are fascinating, as is the desperation to which they cling to their found families. They murder for each other, and there's a part of me that finds that so weirdly romantic. I can see basically any kink working for any combination, if you'd like to write a pwp. Or it can be more of a day in the life at the school thing, set mid or post canon. It'd be interesting to see what happens to the school once Lin presumably dies. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD THOUGH, PLEASE DON'T LET LEX DIE. I staunchly ignore those last thirty seconds, and ignore them HARD.

Fear Street: I ship Simon/Kate/Josh, because I spent the whole movie feeling the deep best friends who fuck vibe between Simon and Kate. They know each other inside and out, grew up together, together to the end (canonically they even die together, though I’d like a no char death AU please). So why would they be mad when one of them wants to find pleasure with someone else? Then comes all the sweet canon budding romance stuff between Kate and Josh, and Simon is like so fucking stoked for Kate. Except everyone is bisexual, so Simon/Josh happens. I’d be delighted with a shortly post canon PTSD ridden relationship building fic, or far future domestic fic. Or they get high on some of Kate’s pills and fuck. I love Simon for his range of raising his younger siblings and being best employee constantly with the goofiness of mooning people on a school bus. I love Kate’s ambition, and see her being really awesome in the future. And I love Josh’s nerdiness, and want to know what his next research obsession is, and future fave games are. He’s definitely an early adopter to future tech.

Gossip Girl 2021: I’m gonna be honest, I watched this show entirely because in the trailer there appeared to be a threesome. I was not disappointed. I love everything about Aki/Audrey/Max. I weirdly relate to Audrey, the financial ruin thing (though mine went from middle class to poverty line, not super rich to rich), and the clinically depressed emotionally abusive mom. I grew up loving Brian Kinney from Queer As Folk, and Max is like his child; proudly sexual and hedonistic, drugs and sex and luxury goods a veneer over the inner pain, not that many care to look deeper. And then Aki, so gen and chill except for all the times his life is falling apart. His dad outing him (and mislabelling him too!) is brutal. I usually hate cheating storylines, the amount of times I’ve bitched ‘don’t cheat just be poly’ is staggering. And Gossip Girl is a show that actually goes there. They both go from ashamed of their cheating and max being used, to finding comfort in each other. I love it so much, and my biggest fear is season 1b saying that it was a mistake.

Letterkenny: I adore the wordplay of this series. I recently mainlined all nine seasons, and the distinct dialects of the farmers, the skids, and the hockey players made half the jokes. I was so excited when this show started with Katy dating both Jonesy and Reilly, and then the later seasons piled on and ruined it. I’d love an AU where they get back together any time during the canon, or post canon. I also have endless feelings about Reilly and Jonesy being bicurious, and Katy encouraging it. Canonically they synchronize the porn they watch, it’s really not that much of a leap to mutual masturbation. The transition from V-poly to a triangle is a beautiful thing.

Hi, Holly_Poly creator! Thanks for writing/drawing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Stranger Things, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would face it, write it.

I'm okay with more tame fic, but I do love explicit stories. If you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

More specifically:

Crazy Ex Girlfriend: I’d love a post series fic where Rebecca and Greg and Nathaniel realise polyamory is the best solution. I loved Rebecca/Nathaniel on the show, their ruthlessness and blatant sexuality (and to be honest, loved the occasional Harry Potter references), but I also loved s4 Greg as a character. I remember arguing with my best friend every week about what should/would happen. I also totally love basically every character, so anyone you want to add in as a foil is great.

Stargate Atlantis: I love the tropes of this fandom so much. Satedaen/Athosian cultures being different than Earths, and polyamory being an accepted or even primary relationship model. I love scared but secretly kinky closeted John, and bitchy DADT-is-for-idiots-I’m-Canadian Rodney. I love both keep-it-hidden-on-random-planet, and Atlantis becomes it’s own free nation and no one cares what AR-1 does styles. Ronon is my favourite character, but I love them all. I like Carson and Radek being there for Rodney, and Lorne being there for John.

Teen Wolf:
-Allison/Isaac/Scott- Maybe this is bad, but I love the PTSD. The histories of child abuse/gaslighting. The mental breakdowns. I’m not saying I want a super bleak fic, but I like how these three fractured people found other people to love them. I don’t ship any of them WITH Chris, but I like him being a present good father for Allison and a mentor for Isaac and Scott, so him being mentioned would be cool.
-Allison/Scott/Stiles- I still like some of the same angsty stuff, broken people finding each other, but also the backbone of certain friendship that is Scott/Stiles. No matter what happens, they’ve got each other’s backs. I’d love fluid sexualities and no labels and kink explorations and stoned sex. Also, no need to figure out an elaborate s3 fixit, Allison can just be alive.
-Danny/Jackson/Stiles- I hadn’t considered the ot3 before seeing this tag but dunno I just think it would be hot? Jackson’s so fragile and I imagine deep Danny/Jackson codependency. If it’s early seasons, I can see Jackson pulling the ‘I’m not gay I’m with Lydia and a million other girls, me and Danny just suck dick sometimes’ card. The unstability of Stiles into all of it could be very interesting.

Stranger Things: If we matched on El/Will/Mike, I love how much of a caretaker Mike always is. Taking care of people who need him is such a crucial component of his psyche, I could see it taking a dom/sub tilt when they got older and sexualised. Like everyone else watching s3, I imploded mentally when Mike shouted it’s not my fault you don’t like girls, and Will’s destruction of Club Byers. I’d love any kind of dealing with your sexuality, figuring out who you are kind of thing (including Will thinking he’s gay and then slowly realising he likes El). Alternatively, an established pairing fic where there’s some kind of hurt/comfort, and domesticity is also lovely.
If we matched on Steve/Jonathan/Nancy, all three seasons have a very different vibe, but I love s1 Steve buying Jonathan the camera and all three sort of seducing each other, s2 breaking up/infidelity/needing more angstfic, and s3 Robin’s enlightened Steve, Jonathan doesn’t move away fic. These three are my traumatised babies who can’t let go of each other despite it maybe being healthier to.

Sense8: I love Wolfgang, Rajan and Kala's dynamic together, so fucking much. Wolfgang is such a loner type, that when he tells Rajan other people wouldn't have done for him what he did and they're FRIENDS now, ugh. Even if you don't triangle ship them, only v-poly, they dance together at the wedding and I completely headcanon that Felix and Wolfgang and Rajan all hang out. And the way Rajan just wants to be a good husband, and genuinely means that in a 'what supports Kala' way, not in any traditional sense, fucking bless his soul. And Kala, struggling with it and the concept of secretly being "bad", and maybe that's okay...
Basically, I just want them to hang out and date and fuck. If you only subscribe to v-poly that's fine, but the final orgy scene had Wolfgang and Rajan kissing AND I DIED, so if you want to write triangle poly that's lovely too. (also, mild headcanon of felix/wolfgang having on and off extremely casual bro-sex. so if Rajan wants to have an OMG KINDA GAY revelation I'd understand it more than Wolfgang one? But you write what makes you happy) Also, I love the background ot8. If you felt like writing a snippet of a orgy within Rajan/Kala/Wolfgang that’d be rad as hell.

It's that time of year... a Dear Yuletide Author post!

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Deadly Class, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would face it, write it.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good.

If you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too) drunk/high sex, BDSM, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs or teeth, and condiments.

More specifically:

Deadly Class: I have requested only Billy, despite nomming Billy, Lex, Petra, and Marcus, and the reason is simple: I ship them in essentially any combination. I love Billy/Lex, Billy/Lex/Petra, Billy/Marcus, and Billy/Lex/Petra/Marcus. (for that matter, I also would ship the four of them with Saya, Maria, and Willie for a nice ot7, but you can only nom four characters so I went with the Rats). From Marcus talking about giving handjobs to Lex attacking people with dildos to Billy getting his arm broken for saying he gets why boys would have a crush on him and his soft skin, the chaotic bisexual energy is strong with literally all of them. Their bleak backstories are fascinating, as is the desperation to which they cling to their found families. They murder for each other, and there's a part of me that finds that so weirdly romantic. I can see basically any kink working for any combination, if you'd like to write a pwp. Or it can be more of a day in the life at the school thing, set mid or post canon. It'd be interesting to see what happens to the school once Lin presumably dies. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD THOUGH, PLEASE DON'T LET LEX DIE. I staunchly ignore those last thirty seconds, and ignore them HARD.

Ferris Bueller's Day Off: I love the mild D/s vibe of Ferris and Cameron's friendship, how Ferris' stupid plans always end up winning over Cameron's common sense, and that Sloane is completely an enabler. I'd love a bit of sexuality struggle for this trio, Ferris or Cameron pining but knowing in the 80's that it's best to just say nothing, until some kind of sparking event happens and truths are revealed. Or maybe a last-summer-before-university deal where nothing is serious, nothing has to MEAN anything, it's all okay (except feelings? possibly?). Or maybe Ferris doesn't consider fooling around with Cameron cheating, because it's CAMERON, and Sloane is his first girlfriend to find out and/or understand that codependency. I do love the hyjinks of the movie, and it's all very Ferris, but if you want to write something more chill, less grand gestures and handwaving from another point of view that's great too.

Sense8: I love Wolfgang, Rajan and Kala's dynamic together, so fucking much. Wolfgang is such a loner type, that when he tells Rajan other people wouldn't have done for him what he did and they're FRIENDS now, ugh. Even if you don't triangle ship them, only v-poly, they dance together at the wedding and I completely headcanon that Felix and Wolfgang and Rajan all hang out. And the way Rajan just wants to be a good husband, and genuinely means that in a 'what supports Kala' way, not in any traditional sense, fucking bless his soul. And Kala, struggling with it and the concept of secretly being "bad", and maybe that's okay...
Basically, I just want them to hang out and date and fuck. If you only subscribe to v-poly that's fine, but the final orgy scene had Wolfgang and Rajan kissing AND I DIED, so if you want to write triangle poly that's lovely too. (also, mild headcanon of felix/wolfgang having on and off extremely casual bro-sex. so if Rajan wants to have an OMG KINDA GAY revelation I'd understand it more than Wolfgang one? But you write what makes you happy)

Scary Stories to Tell In the Dark: I'm sure Ramon is a nice guy, but I ship Stella/Auggie/Chuck ridiculously hard. I love that the boys stuck with her as the rest of the town shunned her, actively choosing her despite it making their lives harder. Chuck is my favourite character, with his dumb jokes and inability to behave properly, but Auggie as the aggravated but secretly loving their friendship bff and Stella the thinker are both great too. If you'd like to write an AU where the book doesn't attack that's fine, but I'd like it still being set in the 60's, not a modern AU. Pre-canon is also totally cool, an established thing with them all trying to sneak around their parents and siblings for this relationship that could get them killed, or their developing feelings and the way they finally spill out. Stella finding a way to get them back from the zombies and the pale lady with all the PTSD could be very fun too. Even a mid-movie AU where they suffer from the attacks but figure out ways to not die. I just want them together!

It's that time of year... a Dear Yuletide Author post!

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation/world build than an unoffensive conversation/world build. This probably goes mostly for Ferris Bueller's Day Off, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would face it, write it.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good.

If you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too) drunk/high sex, and overstimulation. But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs, and condiments.

More specifically:

Insatiable: I haven't been able to watch season two yet, but I just about died watching season one, screaming at the screen about how obvious Bob/Bob/Coralee as a solution was. And then they did it. And then they BROKE IT. I'd love any kind of fixit fic. Maybe Bob Barnard is on the bi spectrum and finds things to love about Coralee. Maybe they realise V poly is a thing, and Bob Armstrong can have them both. Or maybe you feel like writing established relationship fic, where they deal with the WASPy adult jerks around them finding out, or sitting down to talk to Brick and Magnolia about things. I just want the three of them to be happy.

Ferris Bueller's Day Off: I love the mild D/s vibe of Ferris and Cameron's friendship, how Ferris' stupid plans always end up winning over Cameron's common sense, and that Sloane is completely an enabler. I'd love a bit of sexuality struggle for this trio, Ferris or Cameron pining but knowing in the 80's that it's best to just say nothing, until some kind of sparking event happens and truths are revealed. Or maybe a last-summer-before-university deal where nothing is serious, nothing has to MEAN anything, it's all okay (except feelings? possibly?). Or maybe Ferris doesn't consider fooling around with Cameron cheating, because it's CAMERON, and Sloane is his first girlfriend to find out and/or understand that codependency. I do love the hyjinks of the movie, and it's all very Ferris, but if you want to write something more chill, less grand gestures and handwaving from another point of view that's great too.

Sense8: Will add details once I rewatch the movie, but I've had Wolfgang/Kala/Rajan written down as a Yuletide wish on a post it note literally all year, so I know I loved the vibe.
11/27 update: I know it's very unlikely that you're checking again this late, but at least this way I have notes for next year's request.
I love their dynamic together, so fucking much. Wolfgang is such a loner type, that when he tells Rajan other people wouldn't have done for him what he did and they're FRIENDS now, ugh. Even if you don't triangle ship them, only v-poly, they dance together at the wedding and I completely headcanon that Felix and Wolfgang and Rajan all hang out. And the way Rajan just wants to be a good husband, and genuinely means that in a 'what supports Kala' way, not in any traditional sense, fucking bless his soul. And Kala, struggling with it and the concept of secretly being "bad", and maybe that's okay...
Basically, I just want them to hang out and date and fuck. If you only subscribe to v-poly that's fine, but the final orgy scene had Wolfgang and Rajan kissing AND I DIED, so if you want to write triangle poly that's lovely too. (also, mild headcanon of felix/wolfgang having on and off extremely casual bro-sex. so if Rajan wants to have an OMG KINDA GAY revelation I'd understand it more than Wolfgang one? But you write what makes you happy)

It's been three weeks since I was randomly pulled aside and told I needed to attend the toddler room staff meeting because SURPRISE I was going to be toddler room staff starting in the fall, until Christmas at least. And a new shift time too. It was a pretty hard blow, weighed down with triggers. It seemed so like Mckray. And not even pretending to give me a choice, and keeping the moving staff a secret until their meeting, like I didn't deserve to know who was replacing me. I was depressed and close to self harming and I couldn't stop crying, sometimes even at work. There was one night I got up to pee and couldn't get back to sleep because I couldn't stop thinking about it all, I just laid there for over four hours thinking.

I didn't have any Ativan left. I needed it, and I didn't have it, so I was a grown up and went to the walk in to solve my problem. Except I was told I could only get Benzo's from my assigned doctor. Except she doesn't do evening appts like the walk in she's located in do, and I can't take a day off work like that. I tried to get a new doctor, but the administration to assign docs was only open during my work hours. So I left a semi hysterical message on the answering machine, giving permission to talk to my parents, and the next day she called and talked to dad. The long and short of their multiple convos was I could go pick up some from the registered nurse on Saturday. Except when I got there on Sat, the RN told me she didn't have her perscription pad on her, and couldn't write me one.

I ended up having a appt with my actual assigned doc, and she gave me ten. I've only used one so far. I just hope it's worth all the emotional trauma. I hope I work longer than two weeks before getting fired. I hope toddler room goes okay, even though I'll be constantly monitored and the kids aren't half as smart and they're all in diapers. At least I won't have J1 and J2 as two badly behaved kids at the same time. The shift change does fuck me, but getting such a good bus ride for my first year of work was a fluke. My first day is monday. I hope it goes okay.

I was going to post at the one year mark, but I just... didn't. It didn't seem as big as I thought it would feel. We got a jeanie's cake, and Ashley wrote about it in the communication notebook, but still. I really just wanted to be back at Willow's again. I miss her version of feminism and anarchy.

Things that do rile up my emotions:

1) having to do a self review of my time at HPCP. I gave myself all standard, except for one outstanding. I think it's fair, but I know I have to talk about it face to face for the lunch between me and my boss. It's supposed to be a reward, sort of, but I think it's going to be terrible.

2) we have a graduation ceremony on friday, for the five year olds, and i have no idea how this is supposed to go, last june i was the newest staff so they used me as a sub in the baby room instead of letting me attend, because i had the least amount of emotional connection with those kids. ashley wanted me and cassidy to work on it together, but cassidy's done like all of it, because I don't know what needs to be done. I just want it to be over already.

3) The twins leave august second, and I really want to see what this room can be like without those two sociopaths, all the endless tantrums and scary dangerous trainwreck choices. But I also worry about what I'll do to pass the day if it's not coaxing M&N down from throwing chairs. More programming, lol?

It's been a long long time since I've posted here, but tumblr is very bad for finding posts you've written again, and I want to have a record of how I feel right now, for the future.

Yesterday, Monday the seventh, I got a job. The place I interviewed at on Friday liked me enough to call my references that afternoon and hire me Monday. I’d actually been sleeping, the phone woke me up, but dad got it first. I got out of bed anyway, to ask who it was, and he held the phone out to me. I took it, disappointed, knowing it was either Thur’s or Fri’s daycare phoning to tell me the position had been filed. I was worried about how I would handle myself, stay calm, since I’ve felt so upset at all the ‘no thanks’ emails. Because there’s been a few. I interviewed at

mcdermott
weston
stanley
broadway
the weird walk in at anglia
cathcart
hpcp

And sent in more resumes that didn’t even get responses, and each time it was a negative I felt bad. Instead the director asked if I still wanted to work there. My response was something like yes! Yes yes yes! So I start this Thursday! I woke Mom up to tell her, and she couldn’t get back to sleep afterwards, she was so excited. It’s a nice change from when I didnt get the Stanley job, and she said she would stop taking her diabetes medication, my unemployment made her so depressed she wanted to die.

It’s scary though. Knowing I have to do this for eight hours a day, knowing how mcray went wrong. I worry I’m only good in four hour, part time stints. I’ve always said I have low ambitions, but what if I’m just lazy? And I don’t even know what’s fully expected of me. The position was supposed to be for 3-5 year olds, but when she asked I said my favourite age group was 2′s, and when I did the hands on, floor part of the interview she had me work with 2′s, and the 3-5 shift was supposed to be 8.15-5.15, but she told me to come in at 8.30 on Thursday, so maybe I’m NOT working with the 3′s?

I just really, really want this to go well. I’m a Hufflepuff at heart, so loyal. I want to work at the same place for ten years or more, I want to nest somewhere. Please, universe, let things go well.

Conversation	Vignette	Season of Mists (Autumn Colours, Sensations, Activities and Festivals)	Coercion	Anhedonia (Lack of Pleasure)
Tools of the Trade	Down in the Deeps	Monsoon	Confessions	Neon
Power Corrupts	Plate Tectonics	Wild Card	Last Times / Farewells	Biography / Autobiography
Beautiful	Feudal Ties / Master and Servant	The Ancients of the World	Rich and Poor	Dreams and Nightmares
Extrovert	Duende	Pets	Butcher / Baker / Candlestickmaker: Tradesman	Dusk

Things fall apart	accident	allergy
You are the reason	wildcard	rain coat
target	The secret history	overworked

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation than an unoffensive conversation. This probably goes mostly for Blood Drive, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would say it, write it.

All my fandoms could easily have drug use written in. Please, for the love of the Powers That Be, if you're writing them doing ___, write it accurately. Nothing kills a fic faster for me than a fic where someone takes E and gets really mad, or snorts coke and gets sleepy. If you haven't done anything in your past, a great resource is Erowid.org. There are about a thousand drugs listed, all with both scientific information and write-in trip reports.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good. And if you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too). But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs, and condiments. I know that Blood Drive is super gory, and that's fine, as long as the above don't happen.

More specifically:

Blood Drive
What I’m most interested in is the world building, all the cool evil experiments Heart Industries did all over the fractured United States. Maybe Grace and Arthur visit another city with a cool horror trope during the blood drive, like a missing episode. Maybe Grace and Karma go on their own road trip before her kidnapping, or for an AU. I’d also be happy with a different ending to the show, Grace and Slink living and continuing to destroy Heart Industries, Grace being furious about all the insane gross things Slink has done. Basically anything with Grace and the world around her.

Stranger Things:
I like the canon but I'd happily take a different supernatural menace, or a dystopia, or if you don’t know much about the 80’s, a modern AU. I’m really hoping you’re a shipper because I’d prefer ship fic (Steve/Nancy/Jonathan) if possible. I subscribe to the popular headcanon that Steve helped Nancy get the camera at the end of the season. Beyond that, whatever story you want I'll read.
ETA: As of November second, I've watched the second season. I loved it. The only thing that makes me sad is the Nancy/Jonathon infidelity scene. If you'd like to write fixit, that would be fantastic.

Dirk Gently:
I love how Amanda finds a new family, and relief from her disorder with these seemingly dangerous people. I do ship them in a polyamorous way, the nods towards the Rowdy 3 being sort of a hive-mind lends credence towards the date-one-date-them-all trope, but I’m also quite happy with gen. I’d like a happy fic, please. If it follows the end of the last episode of season 1, I’d like the Rowdy 3 to escape/be rescued quickly and be safe. I mostly just want them hanging out together, so domestic curtainfic (or as close as the personalities allow) is great, but if you have a sci-fi tropey idea I’d love to read it too. A little nod to the canon that I really enjoy is Gripps painting nails, so if there's any more gender-fuckery you'd like to write I'm here for it.

The Gay and Wonderous Life of Caleb Gallo:
I would love ship fic, as I strongly ship Caleb/Billy/Karen, and am interested in the intricacies of a mixed orientation relationshio. To me the final episode really lended itself to a polyamourous future, Len going off about how they all love each other, so a future fic where Caleb is with both Benicio, and Karen+Billy would be fantastic. Or a missing scene where them sharing the bed actually does go somewhere sexual. Or an AU where Benicio does get deported and a broken-hearted Caleb goes to Billy for comfort. I’d be happy with slice of life fic, or a pwp.

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation than an unoffensive conversation. This probably goes mostly for It's Always Sunny, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would say it, write it.

One of my fandoms includes a lot of drug use, and the others could easily have it written in. Please, for the love of the Powers That Be, if you're writing them doing ___, write it accurately. Nothing kills a fic faster for me than a fic where someone takes E and gets really mad, or snorts coke and gets sleepy. If you haven't done anything in your past, a great resource is Erowid.org. There are about a thousand drugs listed, all with both scientific information and write-in trip reports.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good. And if you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too). But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs, and condiments. I understand that Cassidy can be set on fire, and Earp revenants get sucked into fiery hell, just don't focus on those moments, please.

More specifically:

It’s Always Sunny: My favourite character is Mac. I’m fascinated by the Mac/Dennis dynamic and how Dennis’ sociopathy plays with Mac’s insecurity. I'd say they have a D/s dynamic, except for the consent thing, which is pretty important to standard D/s. I ship them quite strongly, but if you're not shippy, the canonical interactions are queer enough to get me by :) For this fandom I'd like canon based, or futurefic. I'd be delighted if you could figure out a way to make Mac come out AND STAY OUT. Maybe threesomes are okay, the woman cancels out the man? Or hit it from a religious angle, the new pope being the least homophobic pope the church has ever had? Maybe Charlie writes an even gayer musical and it breaks Mac's closet-willpower? Another idea, I think it’d be hilarious for Mac to get a boyfriend behind the Gang’s back, and how Dennis would lose his mind with jealousy when he finds out. How is he supposed to control Mac if Mac has another man?! Oh, and I headcanon Charlie as asexual, so I can see him being confused but vaguely supportive.

Macdonald Hall:
I ship Bruno/Boots and Bruno/Boots/Cathy/Diane. I really would not be interested in one male/one female. (I didn't request all four chars as to not demand poly from you, but if you're feeling it, please do!) Again, it comes down to the D/s dynamic. Even if it isn't sexual, I love how Bruno can talk anyone into doing anything, even though they're always initially reluctant. The same goes for Cathy. With Macdonald Hall I enjoy the stuff that comes up in all the books; crazy plans, Fish knowing all, Scrimmage and her shotgun, that thing Korman does where there's a large group of people talking and they all have one line and no one gets named. The phrase "sanctity of Macdonald Hall". I like the fact that the secondary characters are one dimensional- Elmer should always be smart, Sidney should always hurt himself, Wilbur should always eat. I would enjoy canonical, futurefic, or AU fic for this fandom. Cathy is secretly a werewolf? Macdonald Hall is a elite school/shelter in a barren wasteland, and the teachers despair because Sidney is one of their best hopes for mankind? Macdonald Hall is full of Light Court Faeries, and York Academy is for Dark Court Faeries, and Bruno freaks out when his unaffiliated friend Boots' dad begins to be swayed by the Dark Court? I love all kinds of urban fantasy, sci fi, and dystopias.

Wynonna Earp:
I’d like canon, or set in an alternate supernatural ‘verse. I picked the Wynonna and Waverly tags because I can’t envision a world where they don’t support each other and hang out. If you’d prefer I’d be happy with a gen case fic, the murderous demon of the week, what they’ve done and the research that goes into finding it. That said, if you’re willing to write ship-fic, you have two options. Waverly/Nicole is sweet and romantic, I’ve been rooting for it since Nicole’s first introduction. I also ship hardcore Wynonna/Dolls/Doc, and there’s practically none of it to be found. I don’t like Wynonna with either of them individually, neither of the individual dynamics fits for me.

Stranger Things:
I like the canon but I'd happily take a different supernatural menace, or a dystopia, or if you don’t know much about the 80’s, a modern AU. I’m really hoping you’re a shipper because I’d prefer ship fic (Steve/Nancy/Jonathan) if possible. I subscribe to the popular headcanon that Steve helped Nancy get the camera at the end of the season. Beyond that, whatever story you want I'll read.

Preacher:
I'd most like future fic. Make up your own idea for the ‘finding god’ roadtrip. (I know nothing of comics canon, so you can really go hog wild). Or hell, make it even further into the future than that, some kind of fucked up mentally unstable alcoholic curtainfic. I tagged for Cassidy/Jesse to get some friendly vamp boyfriend loving, but considering the end of s1, Tulip’s obviously pretty important to them. If you’re so inclined, I also ship the three of them, since Tulip’s been with them both.
A few things to think about- how do they feel when they find out about the town exploding? With Tulip and Cassidy’s pro-chaos and crime natures, does Jesse succumb or still try to ride the moral high horse? Also, this is extremely optional (I don’t want to be the shitty prompter that ends up on _coal), but if you do a roadtrip fic, some sneaky crossover references to other godless nightmare towns (Sunnydale, Night Vale, Sleepy Hollow etc) would be funny.

Crossposts: http://gala-apples.livejournal.com/403829.html

Hi! Thanks for writing for me. My Things I Like lists tend to be pretty long but I hope they're not obnoxiously so. Rifle through and pluck out the bits that sound interesting :)

In general: I'd rather have an in character conversation than an unoffensive conversation. This probably goes mostly for It's Always Sunny, but I mean it for any of the fandoms. Misogyny, racism, homophobia- if the characters would say it, write it.

One of my fandoms includes a lot of drug use, and the others could easily have it written in. Please, for the love of the Powers That Be, if you're writing them doing ___, write it accurately. Nothing kills a fic faster for me than a fic where someone takes E and gets really mad, or snorts coke and gets sleepy. If you haven't done anything in your past, a great resource is Erowid.org. There are about a thousand drugs listed, all with both scientific information and write-in trip reports.

I see life through very queer glasses. I automatically go to poly, then two-person-slash, then gen, then het. I'd really rather a genfic than a focus on paired heterosexual romance. And if you do write a slash or poly fic, I'm down with any rating. From essentially gen where they call each other boyfriend but don't even hold hands to 1k of fucking, I'm good. And if you do aim for a higher rating, I quite like nearly any kink. Some of my favourites are makeshift bondage (like ties or clothes pushed half off to restrict movement) public teasing into being turned on, making people blush, dirty talk, marks of ownership (not necessarily hardcore like collaring, though that's great, having a bracelet to wear or a string of hickies work too). But really, if you wanted to go for any kink I'd be happy. My only limit is no guro/vore.

Note: massages are a trigger of mine. It's really upsetting to read them. I'm okay with dub-con (whether due to manipulation or intoxication), but straight up non-con is not enjoyable. I also have phobias of fire/burning alive, stuff happening to eyeballs, and condiments, but I can't see why any of those would come up anyway.

More specifically:

It’s Always Sunny: My favourite character is Mac. I’m fascinated by the Mac/Dennis dynamic and how Dennis’ sociopathy plays with Mac’s insecurity. I'd say they have a D/s dynamic, except for the consent thing, which is pretty important to standard D/s. I ship them quite strongly, but if you're not shippy, the canonical interactions are queer enough to get me by :) For this fandom I'd like canon based, or futurefic. I'd be delighted if you could figure out a way to make Mac come out. Maybe threesomes are okay, the woman cancels out the man? Or hit it from a religious angle, the new pope being the least homophobic pope the church has ever had? Maybe Charlie writes an even gayer musical and it breaks Mac's closet-willpower? Another idea, I think it’d be hilarious for Mac to get a boyfriend behind the Gang’s back, and how Dennis would lose his mind with jealousy when he finds out. How is he supposed to control Mac if Mac has another man?! Oh, and I headcanon Charlie as asexual, so I can see him being confused but vaguely supportive.

Haven: Gen is fine, if you’re not shippy. Casefic set anywhere in canon would be interesting, when Audrey is still immune or when Duke has to use his Crocker-power to save the day. Interesting Troubles are what makes the show, after all. But if you ARE shippy, I really strongly ot3 Audrey/Duke/Nathan, especially in the first four seasons when Nathan can still feel Audrey. I haven’t seen 5b yet, so please no spoilers from those episodes.

Macdonald Hall:
I ship Bruno/Boots and Bruno/Boots/Cathy/Diane. I really would not be interested in one male/one female. (I didn't request all four chars as to not demand poly from you, but if you're feeling it, please do!) Again, it comes down to the D/s dynamic. Even if it isn't sexual, I love how Bruno can talk anyone into doing anything, even though they're always initially reluctant. The same goes for Cathy. With Macdonald Hall I enjoy the stuff that comes up in all the books; crazy plans, Fish knowing all, Scrimmage and her shotgun, that thing Korman does where there's a large group of people talking and they all have one line and no one gets named. The phrase "sanctity of Macdonald Hall". I like the fact that the secondary characters are one dimensional- Elmer should always be smart, Sidney should always hurt himself, Wilbur should always eat. I would enjoy canonical, futurefic, or AU fic for this fandom. Cathy is secretly a werewolf? Macdonald Hall is a elite school/shelter in a barren wasteland, and the teachers despair because Sidney is one of their best hopes for mankind? Macdonald Hall is full of Light Court Faeries, and York Academy is for Dark Court Faeries, and Bruno freaks out when his unaffiliated friend Boots' dad begins to be swayed by the Dark Court? I love all kinds of urban fantasy, sci fi, and dystopias.

Bugs Potter:
The best part of this duology is just how passionately Bugs cares about music. I believe that no matter what goes down in his life, he'll never stop playing and listening. This could be set in either book. Or maybe it's post apocalyptic, and Bugs wrangles enough survivors to start his own band. Or maybe it's post series, and Bugs has dropped everything in life to go be an Endomorph groupie, and it's Bugs/5 musicians. As long as there's music, I don't care. I ship Bugs/Adam, I wrote a manifesto for them for kink_bingo 2012, but I'd be fine with Bugs/Gus or Bugs/Roger, or maybe the whole Nickaninny band!

Crossposts: http://gala-apples.livejournal.com/403651.html

BANDOM MASTER LIST.

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Doing a meme so I can think about something else than what I'm stressing about for five minutes. Because uuugh. My brain won't stop.

Top Ten Fics By Kudos:

1)We Might As Well Close Our Eyes- Kurt accidentally finds out he's a sub, Puck accidentally finds out he's a dom, and they're both into Finn, who has tons and TONS of gay panic.
2) Until- Darcy's bi and falls for Jane. Jane falls back because Thor's not there. And then Thor comes back. But it's cool because on Asgard poly relationships are the norm.
3) When All These Stars Hit Ground (They'll wake us)- Puck comes out, has summer friends-with-benefits with Kurt before realising he's in love.
4) Job Description- Avengers mental health ward AU.
5) I'm a Poor Man Walking Down The Road- Magneto's poor and a mutant, Charles is rich and a mutant. The class difference matters a lot. Also takes place in space.
6) He Wants It All- Jake wants to do some Not-Gay fooling around, and Ryder conveniently forgets to mention he's pansexual.
7) Hackable Hearts- Penelope Garcia and her BAU team doesn't appreciate this asshole bureaucrat Coulson. Tony's not sure who's trying to hack him, but he ~likes~ it. Also there is ot6.
8) Selected Excerpts from Tony's LJ- Tony has opinions about fandoms. Also it's pre-ot6.
9) Admiration, Imitation- Ryder and Jake think Blaine and Sam are awesome.
10) We're Here, We're Queer, You Should Have Already Known- No one cares that Boots and Bruno are dating, but somehow there are shotguns and committees and late night riots anyway.

thoughts:
-yes, four of those titles are lyrics. I blame Ryan Ross.
-my first bandom fic is number 18. It's Let's All Call In Queer To Work, with basically every bandom band in a super homophobic dystopian AU.
-if you switch to hits, We Might As Well Close Our Eyes, He Wants It All, Until and Job Description are top 4, and then the rest is oooooold Buffy fic. Weird.
-fics with poly--4
-fics with friends with benefits--5
-fics where friends end up in relationships--8. Possibly 9, if you consider Erik/Charles friends. And one is genfic, so.

(do I have my favourite tropes? Yes I do)

Crossposts: http://gala-apples.livejournal.com/402610.html

I had this great dream where Travvie, Gabe, and Pete all wrote a book together about adventuring questing magical Harry Potteresque kids. More specifically, it was three novellas, of the kids doing different things (like PS vs COS vs POA) each written by one of them individually, published in one big tome.

And then if you bought the special more expensive edition of the book, after the three novellas and the afterword there were three short stories, set from the parent POV of one of the MC's parents. And that's when the 'leftist' bomb was dropped.

MC A's mom is single and asexual, and A was a mistake borne out of the only time mom had sex, but she can't regret her happening, even if she worries that when A gets older one of these close friends will become a relationship she can't give advice about. MC B's mom is a widowed lesbian who HATES that B is going off on these adventures because she can't stand the idea that her only loved one left might die. MC C's gay dad is single and always has been, and adopted C anyway, because you don't need to have a soul mate to love in other ways, and he's so proud of C and how loyal C is to her friends.

I can't remember who wrote MC A and MC B, but I know that Travvie wrote single gay dad POV. And I remember that mainstream media made a big deal about how in the three novellas ABC seemed to have "normal" relationships with their parents in the few sentences of dialogue that included parents, when how could they ~really~ with such odd rolemodels? And Pete and Gabe and Travvie were like WHATEVER WHATEVER TALK TO THE HAND and Pete didn't even do interviews without Patrick there, because Patrick had helped him edit his novella into coherency.

(I woke up kinda cranky, because I realised the book didn't exist. And I would read it SO FUCKING MUCH. Harry Potter with proudly in-text queer characters? I'm getting a literature-boner as we speak)

Crossposts: http://gala-apples.livejournal.com/402357.html

ALL I WANT IS A SOUL MATE AU IN WHICH THE RELUCTANT PARTNER ACTUALLY ETERNALLY SAYS NO.

Every one I've read with a reluctant partner always ends with them growing to realise that the dom/soulmate/alpha/whoever is right for them. I just want one that's like NOPE. SOOPER SIRIUSLY NO. NOOOPE and stays that way.

I'm oddly attracted to bonding AUs, regardless of the specific trope that it's built on- born with a name birthmark, or ABO, or imprinting (or various less common variants). And some of them get together instantly, and that's great. But then you get the ones where the one partner is reluctant. And they ALWAYS end up as a couple in the end. Always. I don't mind that generally, but I would looove to read one where the reluctance stays.

Like the one I'm reading right now, Tony's got Clint pinned (they're wrestling), and Clint realises that Tony is sniffing at him. And even though Clint's been reluctant up until now, at this point he's not really pushing him away. Meanwhile I'm like JAB YOUR THUMB IN HIS EYE. HE WON'T WANT TO MATE YOU WHEN HE'S BORROWING EYE PATCHES FROM FURY.

*is contrary as fuck*

Crossposts: http://gala-apples.livejournal.com/402170.html

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