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Apr. 26th, 2013 03:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gala_applesTonight's glee...
cut for spoilers in case anyone cares, but also for triggers
because this changes the way I write...unless it doesn't? and I need to talk it out. *wrings hands*
My favourite (new) character just dropped a bomb; he was molested when he was a kid.
I don't know what to do with this.
Like I can't ignore it when I write fics, it would be like ignoring Gerard's alcoholism or the fact that Dawn didn't exist, until she did. It's a key component of their past. I don't necessarily want to write long fics about those events, but they HAPPENED, and it affects who they are.
But do I have to imply it? In every fic? I mean I guess I do, I just said I can't ignore it, but how heavily? Of the four I've written with him, two are straight up smut. They're both 100% consensual, (and yes, I just doublechecked) but does he need to have inner dialogue about does he feel safe before everything? Even when it's just a short PWP?
And I don't even know what would have happened. He said he was 11 and it was his babysitter, so I guess they were both underage probably? But he said she's in jail? So there would have been court, but since he's underage no names published? But if it's a small town in Ohio and there was a rape case people'd talk, right?
I haven't watched enough Law and Order SVU for this.
And he said he has trust issues with women, like it was a canon line. And looking back I can see that implied (not the assault, that was a total bomb dropped, but the women's motives thing). But if I actually use that fact that makes me a horrible person, right? So can I not slash him now? Because I was pretty heavily slashing him before, as well as m/m/f trioshipping. But he can't be gay because he doesn't trust women. That's awful. And it's also not true, he's dated two different girls since the start of season four.
Then I also have to deal with the fact that when the group found out it was a female perpetrator two of the guys suddenly didn't think it was rape. They thought he had GAME. And Artie was kind of a misogynistic asshat already, but I liked Sam. I LIKED him. He was the only straight guy on the show to never once be homophobic.
I really REALLY need fix it fic where Sam and Artie get punched in the face. And also talked to and schooled on WHAT NO MEANS, JFC, DID THEY NOT GET THAT SPEECH IN SEX ED IN JUNIOR HIGH?
Awww fuck, and if they did junior high is 12/13, which means Ryder was already assaulted, so he'd probably have a panic attack.
Is it exploitative to write that?
Also writers, please don't suddenly write him dating the girl that admitted she'd also been assaulted. Because they didn't like each other at all before the bombs were dropped. So it's kind of like making the two black characters date just because they're black. (which concerns me, because they totally did that with the two asians)
Like I'm happy (I don't think that's the right word, but whatever) that there's a storyline like this. I appreciate when they have characters viewers can relate to <3Lauren Zizes<3. A sad number of people can relate to assault. Everyone on tumblr that's complaining that this is supposed to be a comedy show and not have dramatic storylines and why do we have to go there is blind. Or maybe they skipped a few episodes? You know, since 1x04 where a 16 year old got pregnant and lied about who the father was. I just...
it turns Ryder from a happy go lucky silly potential stoner giddy guy that I want to write a thousand threesomes about because he seems like he'd be really into causal sex, into a character that I have to watch every word I say about, in order to make sure I explicitly mention consent, and not be offensive, or trivialise what he's been through, but still not make his character only about that.
All I wanted was to write a 20k threesome fic. It was literally next on my long-fic list. And now I don't know if I have the competence to write his character, or if it'll all turn into horrible !fail that would get me kicked out of bandom big bang, if Ryder was a different fandom.
cut for spoilers in case anyone cares, but also for triggers
because this changes the way I write...unless it doesn't? and I need to talk it out. *wrings hands*
My favourite (new) character just dropped a bomb; he was molested when he was a kid.
I don't know what to do with this.
Like I can't ignore it when I write fics, it would be like ignoring Gerard's alcoholism or the fact that Dawn didn't exist, until she did. It's a key component of their past. I don't necessarily want to write long fics about those events, but they HAPPENED, and it affects who they are.
But do I have to imply it? In every fic? I mean I guess I do, I just said I can't ignore it, but how heavily? Of the four I've written with him, two are straight up smut. They're both 100% consensual, (and yes, I just doublechecked) but does he need to have inner dialogue about does he feel safe before everything? Even when it's just a short PWP?
And I don't even know what would have happened. He said he was 11 and it was his babysitter, so I guess they were both underage probably? But he said she's in jail? So there would have been court, but since he's underage no names published? But if it's a small town in Ohio and there was a rape case people'd talk, right?
I haven't watched enough Law and Order SVU for this.
And he said he has trust issues with women, like it was a canon line. And looking back I can see that implied (not the assault, that was a total bomb dropped, but the women's motives thing). But if I actually use that fact that makes me a horrible person, right? So can I not slash him now? Because I was pretty heavily slashing him before, as well as m/m/f trioshipping. But he can't be gay because he doesn't trust women. That's awful. And it's also not true, he's dated two different girls since the start of season four.
Then I also have to deal with the fact that when the group found out it was a female perpetrator two of the guys suddenly didn't think it was rape. They thought he had GAME. And Artie was kind of a misogynistic asshat already, but I liked Sam. I LIKED him. He was the only straight guy on the show to never once be homophobic.
I really REALLY need fix it fic where Sam and Artie get punched in the face. And also talked to and schooled on WHAT NO MEANS, JFC, DID THEY NOT GET THAT SPEECH IN SEX ED IN JUNIOR HIGH?
Awww fuck, and if they did junior high is 12/13, which means Ryder was already assaulted, so he'd probably have a panic attack.
Is it exploitative to write that?
Also writers, please don't suddenly write him dating the girl that admitted she'd also been assaulted. Because they didn't like each other at all before the bombs were dropped. So it's kind of like making the two black characters date just because they're black. (which concerns me, because they totally did that with the two asians)
Like I'm happy (I don't think that's the right word, but whatever) that there's a storyline like this. I appreciate when they have characters viewers can relate to <3Lauren Zizes<3. A sad number of people can relate to assault. Everyone on tumblr that's complaining that this is supposed to be a comedy show and not have dramatic storylines and why do we have to go there is blind. Or maybe they skipped a few episodes? You know, since 1x04 where a 16 year old got pregnant and lied about who the father was. I just...
it turns Ryder from a happy go lucky silly potential stoner giddy guy that I want to write a thousand threesomes about because he seems like he'd be really into causal sex, into a character that I have to watch every word I say about, in order to make sure I explicitly mention consent, and not be offensive, or trivialise what he's been through, but still not make his character only about that.
All I wanted was to write a 20k threesome fic. It was literally next on my long-fic list. And now I don't know if I have the competence to write his character, or if it'll all turn into horrible !fail that would get me kicked out of bandom big bang, if Ryder was a different fandom.