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This fic is so good it feels like I'm stoned.

And I don't mean that in the way that would seem obvious; a well written drug scene that makes me flash back. I mean it like...

Okay, so I used to be baked all. The. Time. And usually I'd be doing other things with friends, but I've always been and will always be the one to stay up latest. My natural body rhythm has me sleeping with the sun; I go to bed at 6am and get up at 3pm. It's possible it's a sleeping disorder, but that's not my point. My point is we'd smoke all day evening and night, and then they'd go to bed, and I'd be up for another hour or two, logging into LJ, reading.

And occasionally, while reading stoned, there'd be a fic that would BLOW MY MIND. It was so fucking eloquent and perfect and JFC how was this even possible? Of course, being a stoner, I had these moments with movies and subversive cartoons and tastes and music too. (there's nothing like a Christmas orange while stoned) I'd reread a passage five or six times, not because I was dumb and had a permastoned fried brain, but because I wanted to experience it fully, let every word set in my mind.

The fic I'm reading now is a really well done poly fic, and it's currently having a moment where two of the characters are experiencing cognitive dissonance with each other. (of sorts, I'm sure there's a more accurate word for it but I can't think of it) They've both thought the same way for such a long time only to realise that the other doesn't agree, and they can't bridge that disconnect. But they're trying to talk through it.

And it's such a good scene. It's so fucking spectacular that I feel like I'm that stoned teenager going WHAT SORCERY IS THIS??? at something that will only be half as awesome when I'm sober. Except I'm already sober.

In conclusion: I love reading fics. I haven't felt this sense of wonder in a long time, and it figures that it would be fandom that gives me it.