friday in 3 steps.
Aug. 12th, 2005 09:22 pmstep one: in which my father ruins the english language.
i was called upstairs because there was a arguement between my ma and my da. apperantly it was because 'since nonchalant is a word, chalant must be'. i told them it's like saying derstand is a word because understand is. my dad is now using derstand constantly.
step two: in which gala feels extrememly paranoid.
those damned 15 people things are going around. except for char, who is nice to my mental health, it's driving me batty. i literally cannot stop thinking about it. i'm trying to write this fic, and i can't, because i can't stop thinking about weither or not my friends really like me.
step three. in which i know it's bad to muck around, but do anyway.
i can't stop picking at my fingers. blood makes me feel safe. so do hospitals. my father used to, then we had a misunderstanding about my ocd, and he made fun of it, and now i can't trust him. y'all know about munchausins bi-proxy? it's quite possible i have it myself. a lot of the time, i make myself feel sick.
i was called upstairs because there was a arguement between my ma and my da. apperantly it was because 'since nonchalant is a word, chalant must be'. i told them it's like saying derstand is a word because understand is. my dad is now using derstand constantly.
step two: in which gala feels extrememly paranoid.
those damned 15 people things are going around. except for char, who is nice to my mental health, it's driving me batty. i literally cannot stop thinking about it. i'm trying to write this fic, and i can't, because i can't stop thinking about weither or not my friends really like me.
step three. in which i know it's bad to muck around, but do anyway.
i can't stop picking at my fingers. blood makes me feel safe. so do hospitals. my father used to, then we had a misunderstanding about my ocd, and he made fun of it, and now i can't trust him. y'all know about munchausins bi-proxy? it's quite possible i have it myself. a lot of the time, i make myself feel sick.
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Date: 2005-08-12 09:54 pm (UTC)But Munchausen syndrome (or malingering) is considered a disorder in the DSM IV. That's probably what you're talking about.
Sorry about the correcting, it's the psychology major in me talking. :p
ps, your parents are fabulous nutballs. that is all.
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Date: 2005-08-12 10:03 pm (UTC)oh, i enjoy them throughly. they also argue over what slash they think i'm writing. da: she's writing twins. mom: no, she's writing seamus. gala: i'm writing blaise/theo, thank you.
this coming out about fandom thing, i've never had to deal with. everyone knows.
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Date: 2005-08-12 10:35 pm (UTC)It would be very odd to come out as a slasher... I do have a few RL slasher friends, but that's as far as it really goes...
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Date: 2005-08-13 12:19 am (UTC)I understand completly...my dad tends to make up his own langyage and call it English too...
step two:
Yay! I've been feeling that too. It's like I'm being ignored by my flist (probably because I've fallen silent) and it feels like no one likes me, which is wierd...and probably my own paranoia
step three:
I would tell you to stop but that would probably make me either a 'holier-than-thou' preacher or a hypocrite and I would rather not be either. Just know that you aren't alone, which is something people say which usually doesn't help even when it's true (like it is now)...
Look after yourself, sweetie...
*smooches you*
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Date: 2005-08-13 10:42 am (UTC)I've kind of avoided those "15 things" too, yeah. I figure it's for my own emotional health to be in denial and think that the world still loves me. ^_____^_