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hello.
everything is going to be completey random, becuase i cant write a journal when i need a subject.

i went to a movie today, with tecko, and tecko_lover. i love those guys. also, it's interesting, becuase TL is usually really over protective of T, not to the point of insane boyfriend, just to maybe chill a little bit. though, i cant say i blame him. i love T, but she has fucked up a few times. anyway, it's interesting, becuase we were playing in the arcade bit of the theatre, and he actually told me when i touched her near the 'fun area' that i was the only one he wouldnt hit for doing that! does that mean he likes me? i don't mean like that, but i know he's not scared to defend the things he cares about, and he definatly cares about jess.

it was actually without a paddle that i saw. yum, matthew lillard, and seth green. huddling. in soaking wet underwear. seriously, there were So Many subtextual gay things, it was insane. :)'''''''
ok, i've stopped drooling, i'm ok now. wow, that entire movie was just yum.

and i also love the fact that i'm a voyeur, and both T and TL are exhabitionists. it works out rather well for me.

lemme see, i have to put on more stories for the groups i joined. now i feel guilty. bad me. i would slap my hand, but after reading all the bondage smut, and finding it oddly (F**cking hot) good, i'm scared i might enjoy it. sigh.

so, as it turns out, a girl named iljjc has added me to her friends list. *waves high to hannah if you're reading this* i'm not quite sure why, because we're not in any of the same groups, and we only have harry potter in common to our interests lists, but i like everyone. *hugs invisible hannah* if you are reading this, i shall write you a smut story. i love challenges.

i should add you to my friends list, but im not quite sure how to do that. now that i think of it, tecko isnt on my friends list either. horrors!

that's it for now, i feel guilty about the not enough posts thing, and i'm going to write new posts.

staci.

fuck.

i hate when this shit happens. i'm all ready and raring to feel sorry for myself, and then i hear about someone else, and i feel worse for them then i do for myself, so i cant feel bad about myself anymore.
for example, i had a panic attack in the morning one day at school. i'm all ready to bitch about it at lunch with my friends, when i find out that Carolyn's sister got ran over by a car. how am i supposed to feel sorry for myself now? though, that happening did cause me to stress out so badly the guidence counsellor took me to the phone, so i could call my dad, who took me to the hospital.
or now, i've started ripping skin off my fingers, cause the blood makes me calmer. i thought that was a big deal. but then i read the girl who friended me's journal, and she's had so much shit in her life, i just want to hug her.
oh! and smack everyone in her life, cause most of them seem to suck, and i find violence fun.
i'm supposed to be seeing a head doctor by now, but i'm not. stupid waiting list. with all these damn bad dreams, i'm falling asleep sitting on the couch at like 6 in the evening. arrgh.
but, that's the last people are going to hear about 'bad depressed staci' becuase people don't want to hear about it.
staci.

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