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May. 21st, 2013 02:06 amWanted to reread an Avengers fic I was too stupid to bookmark. I knew it was about PTSD, so naturally I used the PTSD tag while declaring that I'd read every summary until I found it.
16 pages of that tag later I have *counts* 34 fic tabs open. But I still haven't found my fic. AND I WANT TO READ IT MORE THAN I WANT TO READ ANY OF MY OPEN TABS.
It's gen, about how Clint and Natasha take a while after doing deep undercover to turn back into their normal selves, basically go catatonic. And Coulson's alive, but in the hospital and not available to help them transition, so Tony and Pepper are helping them bathe and dress and stuff, and it's just really really GOOD H/C gen.
Any of you recognise it?
16 pages of that tag later I have *counts* 34 fic tabs open. But I still haven't found my fic. AND I WANT TO READ IT MORE THAN I WANT TO READ ANY OF MY OPEN TABS.
It's gen, about how Clint and Natasha take a while after doing deep undercover to turn back into their normal selves, basically go catatonic. And Coulson's alive, but in the hospital and not available to help them transition, so Tony and Pepper are helping them bathe and dress and stuff, and it's just really really GOOD H/C gen.
Any of you recognise it?
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May. 19th, 2013 11:53 pmSo I went over to Vince's mom's house Friday early evening because me and him and Kay were supposed to hang out for a bit. Kay was over for all of an hour before having a panic attack and needing to leave. I, on the other hand, was there until Sunday 4pm.
This is what happens when you try to make plans with Vince.
His mom doesn't have internet, or cable. What she does have is multiple bookshelves of dvd's. And also recliners in the living room. We...didn't really move from the living room, except to go to bed. (which is a 4 poster canopy thing, and I need to boost myself to get into it, but very soft.)
Friday:
Nightmare on Elm Street
Hotel Transylvania
Men In Black 1-3
Saturday:
Monsters Inc
Pirates of the Caribbean 1-4 (all of which clock in at about 2.5 hours)
Final Destination 4
Underworld
Sunday:
Detroit Rock City
And now I'm reading POTC fic, because honestly, who watched the original trilogy and DIDN'T think that Elizabeth/Will/Jack was the perfect solution?
This is what happens when you try to make plans with Vince.
His mom doesn't have internet, or cable. What she does have is multiple bookshelves of dvd's. And also recliners in the living room. We...didn't really move from the living room, except to go to bed. (which is a 4 poster canopy thing, and I need to boost myself to get into it, but very soft.)
Friday:
Nightmare on Elm Street
Hotel Transylvania
Men In Black 1-3
Saturday:
Monsters Inc
Pirates of the Caribbean 1-4 (all of which clock in at about 2.5 hours)
Final Destination 4
Underworld
Sunday:
Detroit Rock City
And now I'm reading POTC fic, because honestly, who watched the original trilogy and DIDN'T think that Elizabeth/Will/Jack was the perfect solution?
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May. 8th, 2013 12:20 amOkay, so. I know a Doctor Who in the near future will have allll the companions, so I was trying to finish my pre-11 watch before that happened. I got down to the last two eps of season four, and the preview had the Torchwood guys, and I realised it was gonna be like when Buffy/Angel were concurrent and referenced each other. I didn't want to get spoilered for TW so I looked it up on wiki, and the last two eps of season 4 fall after the first two seasons of TW. So now I have watch that all before I watch season 4 before I watch 11+Oswin meeting ALLLLL the people.
I think I'm fangirling Torchwood wrong. I'm a few eps in. I like that the eps are darker than DW, much like Angel was darker than Buffy. And I do appreciate that Owen's had a MMF threesome, that Gwen's kissed an alien girl, and I'd have to be blind and deaf to not know that Jack and Ianto eventually become canon OTP.
(Mostly because I was on LJ the night that the last ep of Children of Earth aired, and there were literally 13 posts in a row of rage-quit sobbing weeping hatred anger depression. So I have that to look forward to.)
So yeah, the LGBTQ section is flourishing, which is great. But this OTP does not work for me. At least not yet. I'm up to the fairies ep. IE: last episode Jack made Ianto kill his girlfriend, and said he'd kill them both if Ianto didn't. YOU'RE A PRICK, JACK. FUCK YOU, JACK. Ianto was crying for over half the ep and all I wanted to do was hold him. YOU DON'T DESERVE HIM, JACK.
I think I'm gonna ship Ianto/Owen.
This is like that time I was in [every fandom I've ever been in] and shipped [obscure shit with ten fics total] instead of [OTP with rabid fangirls].
I think I'm fangirling Torchwood wrong. I'm a few eps in. I like that the eps are darker than DW, much like Angel was darker than Buffy. And I do appreciate that Owen's had a MMF threesome, that Gwen's kissed an alien girl, and I'd have to be blind and deaf to not know that Jack and Ianto eventually become canon OTP.
(Mostly because I was on LJ the night that the last ep of Children of Earth aired, and there were literally 13 posts in a row of rage-quit sobbing weeping hatred anger depression. So I have that to look forward to.)
So yeah, the LGBTQ section is flourishing, which is great. But this OTP does not work for me. At least not yet. I'm up to the fairies ep. IE: last episode Jack made Ianto kill his girlfriend, and said he'd kill them both if Ianto didn't. YOU'RE A PRICK, JACK. FUCK YOU, JACK. Ianto was crying for over half the ep and all I wanted to do was hold him. YOU DON'T DESERVE HIM, JACK.
I think I'm gonna ship Ianto/Owen.
This is like that time I was in [every fandom I've ever been in] and shipped [obscure shit with ten fics total] instead of [OTP with rabid fangirls].
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May. 4th, 2013 02:45 amCurrently researching the origin of flipping tables. Because my fic has a definite setting date, and I need to know if flipping tables was a thing before then, or after.
The things you do to write realism in fic. The things you research that no reader will ever, ever know about. Sometimes I want to add THIS FIC MADE ME OPEN FIFTEEN DIFFERENT WIKI TABS in the Author's Notes.
The things you do to write realism in fic. The things you research that no reader will ever, ever know about. Sometimes I want to add THIS FIC MADE ME OPEN FIFTEEN DIFFERENT WIKI TABS in the Author's Notes.
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May. 3rd, 2013 01:14 amTomorrow's plan:
1) get up
2) bus to movie theatre
3) buy tickets for next available show
4) stand in line for many hours
5) bus home for a midnight dinner.
My parents are like "but why don't you see it a few weeks from now when you won't have to wait in line?". Um. Because Gala? Like, come on parents. I am me. How many cons have I been to? Remember that time it was blizzarding and I had a ticket to Half Blood Prince at midnight and got there at 7 because I knew I wouldn't be able to get out of the house if I left later? In what bloody universe is waiting 2 weeks a feasible plan?
But yes. It will be boring. When I went to see Avengers I bought a ticket for a show three airings later than the one I'd planned on seeing, which meant a two hour line that I was NOT in the front of. I guess I will make sure my iPod is fully charged before I go to bed.
Stark, you better be worth it.
1) get up
2) bus to movie theatre
3) buy tickets for next available show
4) stand in line for many hours
5) bus home for a midnight dinner.
My parents are like "but why don't you see it a few weeks from now when you won't have to wait in line?". Um. Because Gala? Like, come on parents. I am me. How many cons have I been to? Remember that time it was blizzarding and I had a ticket to Half Blood Prince at midnight and got there at 7 because I knew I wouldn't be able to get out of the house if I left later? In what bloody universe is waiting 2 weeks a feasible plan?
But yes. It will be boring. When I went to see Avengers I bought a ticket for a show three airings later than the one I'd planned on seeing, which meant a two hour line that I was NOT in the front of. I guess I will make sure my iPod is fully charged before I go to bed.
Stark, you better be worth it.
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I thought for a second it was bullshit, but no, my user info says I have a paid account until the end of June. YAY WINNING THINGS!
OMG. I have so many icons now. *rolls around in 100x100 pixel joy*
Dear gala_apples,
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I thought for a second it was bullshit, but no, my user info says I have a paid account until the end of June. YAY WINNING THINGS!
OMG. I have so many icons now. *rolls around in 100x100 pixel joy*
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Apr. 26th, 2013 03:04 amTonight's glee...
cut for spoilers in case anyone cares, but also for triggers
because this changes the way I write...unless it doesn't? and I need to talk it out. *wrings hands*
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cut for spoilers in case anyone cares, but also for triggers
because this changes the way I write...unless it doesn't? and I need to talk it out. *wrings hands*
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Apr. 25th, 2013 04:37 amSo it's been a few days since I got back from the states, but I wasn't able to go on the computer for days, so I spent the last few catching up on everything.
And there's been A LOT. As some of you could guess looking at my ao3, I've been drawn into Glee fandom pretty hard. Well, I started watching back in college shipping Finn/Puck, from 1x01 when they had a conversation about prostates, the first fic I wrote was a Finn/Puck/Kurt, I spent a month reading two long F/P/K's, which led to meeting nubianamy and co-writing a 160k F/P/K. I don't really DO OTPs, (a few exceptions in specific fandoms aside), but if I had one it would probably be Finn/Puck.
Last Thursday's ep delivered my OTP. HARD. They moved in together, they got called gay and didn't deny it, and then Puck used the phrase 'gonna be on your ass 24/7' EXCUSE ME WOT? I didn't get to watch it until days later, and by the time I did Glee had been renewed for two seasons. Also "Pinn week" is two weeks from now on tumblr, so I've had to start writing seven Pinn fics. (yes, I got a tumblr. It's basically all for glee, so I don't rave about it here, where no one cares)
Add to that my crafting forum stuff, and Pete Wentz being amazing and Gerard tweets and there's been a lot of excitement. *snuggles the concept of fandom* WHAT DO PEOPLE DO WITH THEIR LIVES IF THEY DON'T HAVE SOMETHING TO LOVE??? ...Oh yes. They drink. Or at least that's all Vince's boyfriend's friends did while we were there. It was like 4 days of shopping and drinking.
...I like fandom better.
And there's been A LOT. As some of you could guess looking at my ao3, I've been drawn into Glee fandom pretty hard. Well, I started watching back in college shipping Finn/Puck, from 1x01 when they had a conversation about prostates, the first fic I wrote was a Finn/Puck/Kurt, I spent a month reading two long F/P/K's, which led to meeting nubianamy and co-writing a 160k F/P/K. I don't really DO OTPs, (a few exceptions in specific fandoms aside), but if I had one it would probably be Finn/Puck.
Last Thursday's ep delivered my OTP. HARD. They moved in together, they got called gay and didn't deny it, and then Puck used the phrase 'gonna be on your ass 24/7' EXCUSE ME WOT? I didn't get to watch it until days later, and by the time I did Glee had been renewed for two seasons. Also "Pinn week" is two weeks from now on tumblr, so I've had to start writing seven Pinn fics. (yes, I got a tumblr. It's basically all for glee, so I don't rave about it here, where no one cares)
Add to that my crafting forum stuff, and Pete Wentz being amazing and Gerard tweets and there's been a lot of excitement. *snuggles the concept of fandom* WHAT DO PEOPLE DO WITH THEIR LIVES IF THEY DON'T HAVE SOMETHING TO LOVE??? ...Oh yes. They drink. Or at least that's all Vince's boyfriend's friends did while we were there. It was like 4 days of shopping and drinking.
...I like fandom better.
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Apr. 17th, 2013 02:50 amAbout 15 hours until my first road trip! :D
Well, sort of. Vince's boyfriend lives in South Dakota, he drives down to see him every few weeks. But now Josh is turning 21, and we noble Canadians have been drinking for YEARS, so me and Kay are invited for the party. We're gonna show him how it's done!
The drive's only like 4 hours, but we're couch crashing until Saturday. Actually Vince works later that day, so I have to make sure everyone's up at 4am to start driving. It's my job because they both sleep through alarms, and I stay up until 6 most days anyway. So for me we're staying until late Friday night.
It's so weird to be leaving my city and NOT going to see fen. The last five times at least have been for cons. I can totally see myself poking Josh and wondering why he's not talking about Ron Weasley or My Chem or Supernatural or something.
It's 3am and I haven't packed yet. Or washed anything. Or like, planned out what my OCD ass is going to eat for the next three days. But I do have my money exchanged, so I should get points for that.
Also, I need to remember to write down all my passwords for things. Because I'm not taking my laptop, and everything I use automatically logs in. I'll cry if I can't use twitter until late Saturday. But just in case, saying my goodbyes now!
Well, sort of. Vince's boyfriend lives in South Dakota, he drives down to see him every few weeks. But now Josh is turning 21, and we noble Canadians have been drinking for YEARS, so me and Kay are invited for the party. We're gonna show him how it's done!
The drive's only like 4 hours, but we're couch crashing until Saturday. Actually Vince works later that day, so I have to make sure everyone's up at 4am to start driving. It's my job because they both sleep through alarms, and I stay up until 6 most days anyway. So for me we're staying until late Friday night.
It's so weird to be leaving my city and NOT going to see fen. The last five times at least have been for cons. I can totally see myself poking Josh and wondering why he's not talking about Ron Weasley or My Chem or Supernatural or something.
It's 3am and I haven't packed yet. Or washed anything. Or like, planned out what my OCD ass is going to eat for the next three days. But I do have my money exchanged, so I should get points for that.
Also, I need to remember to write down all my passwords for things. Because I'm not taking my laptop, and everything I use automatically logs in. I'll cry if I can't use twitter until late Saturday. But just in case, saying my goodbyes now!
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Apr. 8th, 2013 10:16 pmSo I watched 2 hours of The Voice, and honestly, the things that I want to be done to Adam Levine. You are cute and hot and have a good voice and have tattoos. And you are clearly a decent dude, because you want to mentor people. Also you snark, which I appreciate.
So I tweeted:
The more I watch The Voice, the more I want Adam Levine slash. I fear this is going to become a problem.
So it immediately became a problem in which I searched ao3 for the Levine tag. And I am sad because I'm on page three of five, and everything is short, tumblr based, and most of it is Adam/Blake with tags for cheating, which I'm not in the mood for. *sigh* Gym Class Heroes featured Adam Levine in a song, why can't I have Adam/Travie?
And now it's even more of a problem because I saw the summary:
Adam and Blake sneak into NBC because Adam is one kinky bastard.
And immediately went:
-they will fuck on stage!
-but who will like it enough to turn their chair around?
-what if the other coaches were there?
-what if the whole The Voice contest was actually people having sex on stage?
-porn voyeur au? Adam and Blake and Cee-lo and Christina run different porn companies and they're looking for new stars?
-but it would be a lot of OCs, so much potential for Mary Sues.
-maybe write a crossover with something else music based for established characters?
DID YOU SEE HOW IT WENT FROM THAT GUY'S HOT TO LEGITLY PROBLEM SOLVING FOR A BIG WORLD BUILDING AU? What the fuuuuuuck brain /o\
So I tweeted:
The more I watch The Voice, the more I want Adam Levine slash. I fear this is going to become a problem.
So it immediately became a problem in which I searched ao3 for the Levine tag. And I am sad because I'm on page three of five, and everything is short, tumblr based, and most of it is Adam/Blake with tags for cheating, which I'm not in the mood for. *sigh* Gym Class Heroes featured Adam Levine in a song, why can't I have Adam/Travie?
And now it's even more of a problem because I saw the summary:
Adam and Blake sneak into NBC because Adam is one kinky bastard.
And immediately went:
-they will fuck on stage!
-but who will like it enough to turn their chair around?
-what if the other coaches were there?
-what if the whole The Voice contest was actually people having sex on stage?
-porn voyeur au? Adam and Blake and Cee-lo and Christina run different porn companies and they're looking for new stars?
-but it would be a lot of OCs, so much potential for Mary Sues.
-maybe write a crossover with something else music based for established characters?
DID YOU SEE HOW IT WENT FROM THAT GUY'S HOT TO LEGITLY PROBLEM SOLVING FOR A BIG WORLD BUILDING AU? What the fuuuuuuck brain /o\
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Apr. 1st, 2013 12:01 amTitle: Drunk and Rowdy (and a little bit fratty)
Pairing: Mikey/Gerard
Rating: pg
Wordcount: 1058
Summary: Bob thinks they're hotter than the average Jerry Springer guest. Gerard would have to agree.
Disclaimer: This is a non-profit, non-commercial work of fiction using the names and likenesses of real individuals. This fictional story is not intended to imply that the events herein actually occurred or that the attitudes or behaviors described are engaged in or condoned by the real persons whose names are used without permission.
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Pairing: Mikey/Gerard
Rating: pg
Wordcount: 1058
Summary: Bob thinks they're hotter than the average Jerry Springer guest. Gerard would have to agree.
Disclaimer: This is a non-profit, non-commercial work of fiction using the names and likenesses of real individuals. This fictional story is not intended to imply that the events herein actually occurred or that the attitudes or behaviors described are engaged in or condoned by the real persons whose names are used without permission.
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Mar. 31st, 2013 12:38 am3 QUILTBAG things that make me pleased to live where I'm living.
1) About a week ago a bill was passed in the House of Commons (equivalent to your senate) to change the Human Rights Act and the criminal code so that it's now illegal to discriminate against transgendered people, that it'll be a hatecrime. Even some Conservatives (your Republicans) voted for it. Good job being sane, Conservatives!
2) Manitoba is currently in the process of passing an anti-bullying bill that would make every school in the province have to have a Gay-Straight Alliance. Not just public schools, all faith based private schools too. Some tiny religious towns like Steinbach are all pissed off about it, saying that they're being forced to promote things that they don't agree with. The Education Minister basically told the religious people to shove it. She said there will be no exemptions, that it'll be in affect by the 13/14 school year.
2a) I just noticed as I was reading an article about the above:
-He points to a 2011 Canada Human Rights Trust study revealing, “20.8 per cent of LGBTQ students indicated being physically harassed due to their sexual orientation, compared to 7.9 per cent of non-LGBTQ participants.”
but American stats I just checked say nine out of ten GBLT students are bullied. So I guess that goes along with the whole "the high school gala went to didn't have a GSA because no one I knew felt like we needed one" thing. Still, good on the Minister for forcing the small towns to have them.
3) I wouldn't say I'm a reality tv junkie. I watch Amazing Race with my mom, and Big Brother myself. I've been watching BB since I was twelve, which was season two. And on every single season of it there was the campy gay guy that would inevitably be forced to have an "explain your lifestyle, Y U GAY DON'T U NO IT'S RONG?" conversation with the republican.
A month ago the first season of Big Brother Canada started airing. There was the campy gay guy, but there didn't seem to be any fundies, so I was like "good job, Canadian casting". And then came last episode, in which they played spin the bottle and aside from the het kissing, every single male in the house made out with every male, and every female with every female. And there were no shits given. GOOD JOB CANADIAN CASTING.
1) About a week ago a bill was passed in the House of Commons (equivalent to your senate) to change the Human Rights Act and the criminal code so that it's now illegal to discriminate against transgendered people, that it'll be a hatecrime. Even some Conservatives (your Republicans) voted for it. Good job being sane, Conservatives!
2) Manitoba is currently in the process of passing an anti-bullying bill that would make every school in the province have to have a Gay-Straight Alliance. Not just public schools, all faith based private schools too. Some tiny religious towns like Steinbach are all pissed off about it, saying that they're being forced to promote things that they don't agree with. The Education Minister basically told the religious people to shove it. She said there will be no exemptions, that it'll be in affect by the 13/14 school year.
2a) I just noticed as I was reading an article about the above:
-He points to a 2011 Canada Human Rights Trust study revealing, “20.8 per cent of LGBTQ students indicated being physically harassed due to their sexual orientation, compared to 7.9 per cent of non-LGBTQ participants.”
but American stats I just checked say nine out of ten GBLT students are bullied. So I guess that goes along with the whole "the high school gala went to didn't have a GSA because no one I knew felt like we needed one" thing. Still, good on the Minister for forcing the small towns to have them.
3) I wouldn't say I'm a reality tv junkie. I watch Amazing Race with my mom, and Big Brother myself. I've been watching BB since I was twelve, which was season two. And on every single season of it there was the campy gay guy that would inevitably be forced to have an "explain your lifestyle, Y U GAY DON'T U NO IT'S RONG?" conversation with the republican.
A month ago the first season of Big Brother Canada started airing. There was the campy gay guy, but there didn't seem to be any fundies, so I was like "good job, Canadian casting". And then came last episode, in which they played spin the bottle and aside from the het kissing, every single male in the house made out with every male, and every female with every female. And there were no shits given. GOOD JOB CANADIAN CASTING.
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Mar. 18th, 2013 01:15 amI need music recs. Links to youtube are fine, as is just telling me the names of songs.
More specifically, I need music in which it's a duet between a man's voice, and a decently high-pitched girl's voice.
Examples (that don't actually work lyrics-wise for what I need, but the voices are good)
-Broken, by Seether ft Amy Lee
...I just went through my entire itunes, and that's literally the only true duet song I have. I mean, there's Cobra Starship's Fool Like Me, but that's really just the chorus. And then there's Pusifier, but the female voice is as low as the male's.
More specifically, I need music in which it's a duet between a man's voice, and a decently high-pitched girl's voice.
Examples (that don't actually work lyrics-wise for what I need, but the voices are good)
-Broken, by Seether ft Amy Lee
...I just went through my entire itunes, and that's literally the only true duet song I have. I mean, there's Cobra Starship's Fool Like Me, but that's really just the chorus. And then there's Pusifier, but the female voice is as low as the male's.
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Mar. 8th, 2013 05:43 pmSo I've been backreading an angst meme, and then a prompt came up that intrigued me. Not because I wanted to write it, just I love when prompts are based on things that aren't words, if that makes sense.
"Something based on the game "loved". (http://www.kongregate.com/games/Alexan
SPOILERS FOR THE GAME AHEAD, sort of- I reccommend playing it through first. It's haunting stuff. (Trigger warning for some creepy emotional-abuse stuff though.) So one major interpretation of the game is that it's about an emotionally abusive relationship, and how it may seem it's easier to go along with your abuser, but only because THEY choose to make it hard not to. I'd love anything you can do with that idea and the whole style of the game."
The prompt is from two years ago, but the game is still available. I went and played it, then came back and read the fill and the comments.
http://glee-angst-meme.livejournal.c
I know Glee isn't any of your fandoms, so you don't have to read the fill. The part that I found interesting is all the comments saying how much of a headfuck the game was. That they all opened it thinking it's just a game, whatever, and came out feeling emotionally fucked up. They felt bad when the narrator got mad.
The thing is, when I tried to play and failed, it got upset at me, and I started anthromorphising it too. But I didn't feel guilty. I got mad. I was like FUCK YOU YOU ASSHOLE HOW DARE YOU CALL ME DISAPPOINTING YOU CAN EAT SHIT AND DIE. I WILL STAB YOU IN THE FACE. I'm not sure what to think about that. I'm too irrationally hostile to be emotionally abused? Is that BETTER?
"Something based on the game "loved". (http://www.kongregate.com/games/Alexan
SPOILERS FOR THE GAME AHEAD, sort of- I reccommend playing it through first. It's haunting stuff. (Trigger warning for some creepy emotional-abuse stuff though.) So one major interpretation of the game is that it's about an emotionally abusive relationship, and how it may seem it's easier to go along with your abuser, but only because THEY choose to make it hard not to. I'd love anything you can do with that idea and the whole style of the game."
The prompt is from two years ago, but the game is still available. I went and played it, then came back and read the fill and the comments.
http://glee-angst-meme.livejournal.c
I know Glee isn't any of your fandoms, so you don't have to read the fill. The part that I found interesting is all the comments saying how much of a headfuck the game was. That they all opened it thinking it's just a game, whatever, and came out feeling emotionally fucked up. They felt bad when the narrator got mad.
The thing is, when I tried to play and failed, it got upset at me, and I started anthromorphising it too. But I didn't feel guilty. I got mad. I was like FUCK YOU YOU ASSHOLE HOW DARE YOU CALL ME DISAPPOINTING YOU CAN EAT SHIT AND DIE. I WILL STAB YOU IN THE FACE. I'm not sure what to think about that. I'm too irrationally hostile to be emotionally abused? Is that BETTER?
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Mar. 5th, 2013 12:43 amSo apparently the key to writing actual nc17 fic instead of doing my normal vague fade-to-black R rated style is writing smut while one or two days premenstrual. Because holy fuck. I've written porn scenes into like 4 different stories today. At least 5k's worth of dirty nasty porn.
Amd I've also spent like an hour on tumblr gif porn blogs. But that's neither here nor there, really. (Why's most of the pegging two girls one guy? Is it supposed to reinforce the feeling of heterosexuality-even-though-buttfucking?
In conclusion...ORGASMS FOR EVERYONE! Every fandom and all the real people too! Unless you're ace. Then please enjoy a nice book.
Amd I've also spent like an hour on tumblr gif porn blogs. But that's neither here nor there, really. (Why's most of the pegging two girls one guy? Is it supposed to reinforce the feeling of heterosexuality-even-though-buttfucking?
In conclusion...ORGASMS FOR EVERYONE! Every fandom and all the real people too! Unless you're ace. Then please enjoy a nice book.
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Feb. 20th, 2013 04:52 pmCrafty post!
One of the things I like to make are altered puzzles. Basically you decide on a theme, peel the original paper off the individual pieces, and then pull out all your scraps and magazines and scrapbooking paper and redecorate each piece in your theme.
This one is the Chinese New Year.
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One of the things I like to make are altered puzzles. Basically you decide on a theme, peel the original paper off the individual pieces, and then pull out all your scraps and magazines and scrapbooking paper and redecorate each piece in your theme.
This one is the Chinese New Year.
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Feb. 11th, 2013 03:48 amOkay, so in Dec/Jan my side-fandom was Glee. More specifically, I spent two weeks reading a 2 million word Kurt/Puck/Finn, and then another read reading a million word Kurt/Puck/Finn, written in huge 100k chunks. I basically live tweeted the whole time for that second fic, because it was like the fic of my SOUL. High School fic, poly, D/s, and stupid boys being faily. and MAKING YOUR OWN FAMILY. And not just trio poly. Of the main ABC triad A has 3 others, B has 1 and C has 5.
So I left this long comment essentially saying EVERYTHING YOU ARE IS PERFECT AND ALSO WRITE MORE PLZ. And she replied with 'on hiatus, actually, no one really likes this verse'. And in my head was like I WANT TO VOMIT AND DIE. Because I NEED THIS FIC TO LIVE. But I didn't want to be creepy, so I didn't say that. But when I saw last week she was starting a Finn/Puck WIP I was like I WILL COMMENT ON EACH CHAPTER SO YOU DON'T GET DISCOURAGED AGAIN. It was gonna be a sacrifice, because I hate WIPs. Except it again hit my kink buttons. And by "hit" I mean flaming elemental dragon punch. So on the second chapter I ended up getting off to it. And then I warned for TMI and told her. I was really worried about the comment I was going to get back, I expected an 'ew gross'. I got meta on the homosocial nature of anonymity. At that point I was pretty hearteyeing. And then she commented on a few of my fics while I did the whole OMG NOT WORTHY thing. And the ones she commented on were all part of the thing I did where I wrote Xander getting laid in each episode of Buffy.
And then I went over to K's house, and she has Netflix. And I was having some hardcore insomnia so I stayed up literally all night watching season one of Glee. 13 episodes. And I had all these Get Glee Laid ideas, same as Xander, so I wanted to tell her. So i logged in to see if you had a LJ or DW to comment on somewhere that wasn't a fic, and you only have tumblr, which I don't have. So then I decided to be a creeper and just backread your tumblr anyway, even though I couldn't use it to talk to you. And I was all ladada i agree with these 4-12 thoughts... lalala what ep is this amazing Puck/Kurt GIF from lalala oh it's a manip lalala OMG SHE HAS DONUTVERSE INSPIRATION FACE EXPLODES IN JOY^^^^. *five minutes of staring at computer in silence, just grinning* (left on a random fic of hers on ao3, as well as plot outlines for like five fics)
^^^donutverse being the 1000k fic. Also, her tumblr said she had a new lease on it because SOMEONE LEFT A REALLY LONG REALLY ENTHUSIASTIC COMMENT. I wonder who that was *cough cough*
And she answered this insane comment by giving me her email. But the Me Being Creepy And Crazy doesn't stop there folks. Because I got sick the next day. Really sick. Needing help to stand up and fever hallucinations sick. AND I SENT HER AN EMAIL. And I only realised like three days later that what I sent her was literally gibberish and blather. But somehow none of it scared her off. Better than that? She told me she liked my writing and she wanted to co-fic. So I sent her a brainstorming email with a ton of random ideas (my brain is like a fic meme, I have endless ideas) and she picked one.
We only had a matching schedule/time to write on Sunday. In that one session we wrote 8555 words. And figured out how to turn the general idea into poly D/s with making your own family. (They're already high schoolers). 8500 and the pairing hasn't even had sex yet. It's going to be SO. LONG. I'd say "fuck my life" but I mean the opposite of that, really.
Moral of the story? Being a creeper online PAYS OFF. Good things happen when you have absolutely zero self-restraint. :DDDDD
ETA: WIP fic got 2 more chapters, and there was something crazy-hot in chapter 4 that I got off to. And told her, because at this point why the fuck not? And her reply was "Yeah, I wrote that in for you" HOW AWESOME IS THAT?
So I left this long comment essentially saying EVERYTHING YOU ARE IS PERFECT AND ALSO WRITE MORE PLZ. And she replied with 'on hiatus, actually, no one really likes this verse'. And in my head was like I WANT TO VOMIT AND DIE. Because I NEED THIS FIC TO LIVE. But I didn't want to be creepy, so I didn't say that. But when I saw last week she was starting a Finn/Puck WIP I was like I WILL COMMENT ON EACH CHAPTER SO YOU DON'T GET DISCOURAGED AGAIN. It was gonna be a sacrifice, because I hate WIPs. Except it again hit my kink buttons. And by "hit" I mean flaming elemental dragon punch. So on the second chapter I ended up getting off to it. And then I warned for TMI and told her. I was really worried about the comment I was going to get back, I expected an 'ew gross'. I got meta on the homosocial nature of anonymity. At that point I was pretty hearteyeing. And then she commented on a few of my fics while I did the whole OMG NOT WORTHY thing. And the ones she commented on were all part of the thing I did where I wrote Xander getting laid in each episode of Buffy.
And then I went over to K's house, and she has Netflix. And I was having some hardcore insomnia so I stayed up literally all night watching season one of Glee. 13 episodes. And I had all these Get Glee Laid ideas, same as Xander, so I wanted to tell her. So i logged in to see if you had a LJ or DW to comment on somewhere that wasn't a fic, and you only have tumblr, which I don't have. So then I decided to be a creeper and just backread your tumblr anyway, even though I couldn't use it to talk to you. And I was all ladada i agree with these 4-12 thoughts... lalala what ep is this amazing Puck/Kurt GIF from lalala oh it's a manip lalala OMG SHE HAS DONUTVERSE INSPIRATION FACE EXPLODES IN JOY^^^^. *five minutes of staring at computer in silence, just grinning* (left on a random fic of hers on ao3, as well as plot outlines for like five fics)
^^^donutverse being the 1000k fic. Also, her tumblr said she had a new lease on it because SOMEONE LEFT A REALLY LONG REALLY ENTHUSIASTIC COMMENT. I wonder who that was *cough cough*
And she answered this insane comment by giving me her email. But the Me Being Creepy And Crazy doesn't stop there folks. Because I got sick the next day. Really sick. Needing help to stand up and fever hallucinations sick. AND I SENT HER AN EMAIL. And I only realised like three days later that what I sent her was literally gibberish and blather. But somehow none of it scared her off. Better than that? She told me she liked my writing and she wanted to co-fic. So I sent her a brainstorming email with a ton of random ideas (my brain is like a fic meme, I have endless ideas) and she picked one.
We only had a matching schedule/time to write on Sunday. In that one session we wrote 8555 words. And figured out how to turn the general idea into poly D/s with making your own family. (They're already high schoolers). 8500 and the pairing hasn't even had sex yet. It's going to be SO. LONG. I'd say "fuck my life" but I mean the opposite of that, really.
Moral of the story? Being a creeper online PAYS OFF. Good things happen when you have absolutely zero self-restraint. :DDDDD
ETA: WIP fic got 2 more chapters, and there was something crazy-hot in chapter 4 that I got off to. And told her, because at this point why the fuck not? And her reply was "Yeah, I wrote that in for you" HOW AWESOME IS THAT?
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Jan. 31st, 2013 04:59 amSo I read my first hockey fic tonight. Halfeatenmoon gave me a link, and since we have pretty similar fic-tastes, and I've loved a lot of the things she's written I figured why the fuck not? Here are some opinions about hockeyfic (eta this one):
-The entire first sex scene I pictured the two hockey players in full hockey gear. Jerseys, pads, socks over the pants. In Montreal Canadiens colours, more specifically.
-When I started reading my mental image for Sidney Crosby was Tom Welling from Smallville. At some point I got curious enough to google him. He looks NOTHING like Tom Welling. I shook my head to get his real image out of my head, and continued imagining Tom Welling doing all the stuff.
-This nickname thing is out of control. I have no idea how many people are in each group scene because each person goes by their first name, their last name, a nickname, and a nickname that's their last name except a few letters different. I can't stop imagining like 30 people in each scene.
-Then they mention the season ending and everyone going back home and I know that this is NOT a fandom I can handle. I have a thing about friends and abandonment. Part of the reason bandom is so amazing is because they live in a bus together for months at a time. Some dude named Geno went to Russia and Sidney is going to miss him. I have no idea who either is but I sort of want to cry.
-Also this closeted thing is SERIOUSLY NOT WORKING FOR ME. My stance has always been 'tell everyone, punch everyone that says something bad', and Gerard's "homophobes, get out of our concert, stop buying our cds" and Gabe's kissing random guys works a lot better for me than this closeted thing.
-Whoever Colby is, I like his attitude. I could possibly read more with him. Again, not googling, but sort of imagining Erik from Trueblood.
-Ovechekin looks like Mickey Rourke in my brain. Pretty much identical to his Ironman 2 role. This is probably not accurate.
-yay he came out and his team is cool with it. ABOUT FUCKING TIME. God this closeted thing is bullshit. They're trying to get him a boyfriend. It's awesome.
-dude, Sidney, you are so fucking co-dependant with this Geno guy. This is totally one of those bandom fics where Brendon and Spencer are married without being married and everyone else in Decaydance finds it hilarious. JUST BONE HIM ALREADY, PETE WENTZ COMMANDS IT.
-and then they boned, after Geno got hardcore jealous and trashed a public bathroom. ...not the way bandom would have done it, seems kinda Hermione-sending-a-flock-of-birds-at-Lav
So that was my first hockey fic. I could maybe read more? Not with Jonathon Toews though, because he's a friend of my cousin and that's a liiiiittle bit fourth-wall for me. I hope this summary amused hockey fandomers on my flist.
-The entire first sex scene I pictured the two hockey players in full hockey gear. Jerseys, pads, socks over the pants. In Montreal Canadiens colours, more specifically.
-When I started reading my mental image for Sidney Crosby was Tom Welling from Smallville. At some point I got curious enough to google him. He looks NOTHING like Tom Welling. I shook my head to get his real image out of my head, and continued imagining Tom Welling doing all the stuff.
-This nickname thing is out of control. I have no idea how many people are in each group scene because each person goes by their first name, their last name, a nickname, and a nickname that's their last name except a few letters different. I can't stop imagining like 30 people in each scene.
-Then they mention the season ending and everyone going back home and I know that this is NOT a fandom I can handle. I have a thing about friends and abandonment. Part of the reason bandom is so amazing is because they live in a bus together for months at a time. Some dude named Geno went to Russia and Sidney is going to miss him. I have no idea who either is but I sort of want to cry.
-Also this closeted thing is SERIOUSLY NOT WORKING FOR ME. My stance has always been 'tell everyone, punch everyone that says something bad', and Gerard's "homophobes, get out of our concert, stop buying our cds" and Gabe's kissing random guys works a lot better for me than this closeted thing.
-Whoever Colby is, I like his attitude. I could possibly read more with him. Again, not googling, but sort of imagining Erik from Trueblood.
-Ovechekin looks like Mickey Rourke in my brain. Pretty much identical to his Ironman 2 role. This is probably not accurate.
-yay he came out and his team is cool with it. ABOUT FUCKING TIME. God this closeted thing is bullshit. They're trying to get him a boyfriend. It's awesome.
-dude, Sidney, you are so fucking co-dependant with this Geno guy. This is totally one of those bandom fics where Brendon and Spencer are married without being married and everyone else in Decaydance finds it hilarious. JUST BONE HIM ALREADY, PETE WENTZ COMMANDS IT.
-and then they boned, after Geno got hardcore jealous and trashed a public bathroom. ...not the way bandom would have done it, seems kinda Hermione-sending-a-flock-of-birds-at-Lav
So that was my first hockey fic. I could maybe read more? Not with Jonathon Toews though, because he's a friend of my cousin and that's a liiiiittle bit fourth-wall for me. I hope this summary amused hockey fandomers on my flist.
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Jan. 27th, 2013 04:58 am*facepalms*
Today I went to a babyshower, and it was fun. I never realise how many half cousins I have until we're all in a room together, and then BAM where the fuck did these seventy/one hundred people come from???. Truth be told, I like M better. He's my 8 month old baby cousin. R's only 2 months. R's still all floppy and you have to be super careful, M's crawling and interacting. Fun \o/
But it was a brunch thing, and we got home at the time that I usually get out of bed, so I went for a nap. And when I got up, I went on twitter. CUE NIGHTMARE.
Basically my thoughts boil down to "I feel really bad that all the fans feel bad". Because for me the whole debacle has two distinct barriers from affecting me emotionally.
1) I am from the SIRIUS BLACK ISN'T DEAD school of fandom. I like AUs and I cannot lie. Yeah, in RL Mikey cheated. In fanfic, Mikey is a hamster! Or a space pirate. Or dating his brother. Space pirate!Mikey doesn't even have a significant other. I'm not going to have a problem reading or writing fic where high school Mikey is a werecat. Fuck canon!
2) Since I've had friends that have sex, (about eight years?) I haven't witnessed a single relationship where either one or both of the parties haven't cheated. It's not like I don't think cheating is shitty. It totally is. I've just seen it SO MUCH that it's become just another facet of all of my friends characters. Cheating is something stupid that people do that they shouldn't, like driving stoned, or gossiping. I don't like it, but it's not going to end my interest in a person.
But I know a lot of you are really really upset right now. I wish I could hug you all. Maybe try reading Panic fic for a bit? Or go to a secondary fandom. Just don't leave forever, because Pete Wentz needs your love. And hockey players aren't as cute as Frank.
Today I went to a babyshower, and it was fun. I never realise how many half cousins I have until we're all in a room together, and then BAM where the fuck did these seventy/one hundred people come from???. Truth be told, I like M better. He's my 8 month old baby cousin. R's only 2 months. R's still all floppy and you have to be super careful, M's crawling and interacting. Fun \o/
But it was a brunch thing, and we got home at the time that I usually get out of bed, so I went for a nap. And when I got up, I went on twitter. CUE NIGHTMARE.
Basically my thoughts boil down to "I feel really bad that all the fans feel bad". Because for me the whole debacle has two distinct barriers from affecting me emotionally.
1) I am from the SIRIUS BLACK ISN'T DEAD school of fandom. I like AUs and I cannot lie. Yeah, in RL Mikey cheated. In fanfic, Mikey is a hamster! Or a space pirate. Or dating his brother. Space pirate!Mikey doesn't even have a significant other. I'm not going to have a problem reading or writing fic where high school Mikey is a werecat. Fuck canon!
2) Since I've had friends that have sex, (about eight years?) I haven't witnessed a single relationship where either one or both of the parties haven't cheated. It's not like I don't think cheating is shitty. It totally is. I've just seen it SO MUCH that it's become just another facet of all of my friends characters. Cheating is something stupid that people do that they shouldn't, like driving stoned, or gossiping. I don't like it, but it's not going to end my interest in a person.
But I know a lot of you are really really upset right now. I wish I could hug you all. Maybe try reading Panic fic for a bit? Or go to a secondary fandom. Just don't leave forever, because Pete Wentz needs your love. And hockey players aren't as cute as Frank.
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Jan. 22nd, 2013 12:38 amIt is fucking intensely cold in Winnipeg right now. I've seen people complain about snow on Twitter. I WANT SNOW. SNOW MEANS THE AIR IS WET/WARM ENOUGH FOR IT TO SNOW. GIVE ME YOUR SNOW With the windchill it's currently -43. It's supposed to get stay that temperature (or get colder) until Friday. On the news tonight we were informed that for the next few days you can only pick up your mail at post offices, because it's dangerously cold for postal workers to deliver mail and they've been recalled. The weather channel says that exposed skin can get frostbite in 2-5 minutes. My iPod malfunctioned on the way to the bus.
ETA: I just googled to check if it's true. The entire article was about how the phrase "it's too cold to snow" isn't accurate, that it can snow at any temperature. That if you say that phrase you just don't understand science. And then it says If the air cools to truly frigid Arctic temperatures such as -40 C and below then the moisture capacity of the air will be so low that likely not much snow can occur. Only at these extremely low temperatures is the phrase "it is too cold to snow" fairly valid. YEAH THAT'S WHAT I FUCKING THOUGHT. TOO COLD TO SNOW.
In other news, I started to write a Porn Battle fill. After getting 2600 words in I decided FUCK IT, THIS IS A BIG BANG. So I'm totally saving it for a few months and writing it for polygamybb.
I wrote The Knock Knock Knock When She Cries for no_tags, the one where Grace is a reincarnation of Mother War. Because fuck yeah to worldbuilding. Like, what could possibly be more fun than making Killjoys and Black Parade crossover?
If any of you are down for Canadian content, I rec watching Cracked, as well as Lost Girl. They're very very different, but both quite good. I'm also enjoying Canada's Greatest Know It All on Discover channel, because the happiness I get from knowing an answer makes up for the grumpiness when I don't. And then NOT Canadian, but new and good is The Following. Serial killers and cults and a lot of meta- what more could a woman want?
ETA: I just googled to check if it's true. The entire article was about how the phrase "it's too cold to snow" isn't accurate, that it can snow at any temperature. That if you say that phrase you just don't understand science. And then it says If the air cools to truly frigid Arctic temperatures such as -40 C and below then the moisture capacity of the air will be so low that likely not much snow can occur. Only at these extremely low temperatures is the phrase "it is too cold to snow" fairly valid. YEAH THAT'S WHAT I FUCKING THOUGHT. TOO COLD TO SNOW.
In other news, I started to write a Porn Battle fill. After getting 2600 words in I decided FUCK IT, THIS IS A BIG BANG. So I'm totally saving it for a few months and writing it for polygamybb.
I wrote The Knock Knock Knock When She Cries for no_tags, the one where Grace is a reincarnation of Mother War. Because fuck yeah to worldbuilding. Like, what could possibly be more fun than making Killjoys and Black Parade crossover?
If any of you are down for Canadian content, I rec watching Cracked, as well as Lost Girl. They're very very different, but both quite good. I'm also enjoying Canada's Greatest Know It All on Discover channel, because the happiness I get from knowing an answer makes up for the grumpiness when I don't. And then NOT Canadian, but new and good is The Following. Serial killers and cults and a lot of meta- what more could a woman want?
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Jan. 8th, 2013 06:43 pmI need help so I can finish this project. I'm doing Avengers jewelry, and can only use two primary/secondary colours.
Black Widow- black/red
Hawkeye- black/purple
Ironman- red/gold (replaced by yellow)
C.A.- red/blue
Hulk- I thought green/purple, but google images seems to think green/yellow. Your opinion?
Thor- I HAVE NO IDEA. Every way I phrase 'Thor symbols' google is just showing damn Mjolnir. silver/brown is not going to work.
Black Widow- black/red
Hawkeye- black/purple
Ironman- red/gold (replaced by yellow)
C.A.- red/blue
Hulk- I thought green/purple, but google images seems to think green/yellow. Your opinion?
Thor- I HAVE NO IDEA. Every way I phrase 'Thor symbols' google is just showing damn Mjolnir. silver/brown is not going to work.
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Jan. 8th, 2013 03:47 amDay eight of snowflake- fandom goals.
1) 18 more Avengers fics for kink bingo amnesty.
2) 24 any-fandom fics for Kink Bingo amnesty's communal cards.
3) 9 Waycest fics for Waycest kiss bingo.
4) 14 Waycest+1 fics for second kiss bingo card.
5) finish uploading to ao3. (I was nearly done, but then I did Bandom Advent and I have another 24 to add)
6) Give serious consideration to what to do about HP and ao3. All other fandoms are already uploaded, but you have about five years of Harry Potter, not all of which is good writing. Possibly only post things from fests? Fests tend to be your best fics in that fandom.
7) Rewatch first three seasons of Glee so you can write a canon compliant Glee 12some. (you want to read one, and you can't find any, so instead of whining, do it yourself)
8) Pre-make that Avengers artwork so if the ReverseBB does a second round you are prepared.
9) Choose which 2 of about 17 BB outlines you'll be writing for BBB.
10) You only read the stuffsit fic written for yourself. You need to go back and read all the other fics.
Okay, and speaking of? I wrote the Bob Is An Immune To Werewolves Hooker fic, and literally no one was surprised. Everyone that speculated about who wrote it guessed me. I suppose if I really wanted to strive for anonymity I shouldn't write an oddly constructed alternate universe with multiple primary pairings and background polygamy. BUT THAT'S SO FUN! Poly and AUs are my JAM.
1) 18 more Avengers fics for kink bingo amnesty.
2) 24 any-fandom fics for Kink Bingo amnesty's communal cards.
3) 9 Waycest fics for Waycest kiss bingo.
4) 14 Waycest+1 fics for second kiss bingo card.
5) finish uploading to ao3. (I was nearly done, but then I did Bandom Advent and I have another 24 to add)
6) Give serious consideration to what to do about HP and ao3. All other fandoms are already uploaded, but you have about five years of Harry Potter, not all of which is good writing. Possibly only post things from fests? Fests tend to be your best fics in that fandom.
7) Rewatch first three seasons of Glee so you can write a canon compliant Glee 12some. (you want to read one, and you can't find any, so instead of whining, do it yourself)
8) Pre-make that Avengers artwork so if the ReverseBB does a second round you are prepared.
9) Choose which 2 of about 17 BB outlines you'll be writing for BBB.
10) You only read the stuffsit fic written for yourself. You need to go back and read all the other fics.
Okay, and speaking of? I wrote the Bob Is An Immune To Werewolves Hooker fic, and literally no one was surprised. Everyone that speculated about who wrote it guessed me. I suppose if I really wanted to strive for anonymity I shouldn't write an oddly constructed alternate universe with multiple primary pairings and background polygamy. BUT THAT'S SO FUN! Poly and AUs are my JAM.
